$1.47

that's how much money i have on my debit card at this moment. but fear not! i just typed up my impressive resume, which is the key to my part-time success!

i actually consider starting a revolution against resume's, simply because they're kind of a big lie. but here's what i wrote about myself:
i can describe myself as being: -organized -innovative -diligent -reliable -quick learner -sociable -intelligent -responsible
are any of those true? well, maybe the innovative one is slightly true. and the sociable one can be true at times.
i also put for my professional accomplishments..
-completed Italian 10, 20, 30 in Saturday morning classes
-participated in D.A.R.E. program (not like it ultimately taught me anything)
-ballet and tap dancer of 14 years
-received a tap scholarship
-completed Babysitting courses
-went to a week long Bible Camp
-honor student

my mother made the last one very clear to me that it is VERY IMPORTANT WHEN LOOKING FOR JOBS. and i quite like the Bible camp one. that was a fun week and i love God. except it makes me look like a hardcore church groupie or something.
for volunteering i put the two church dinners i helped at and Breakforth Canada (that Christian concert thing), which also adds to my church groupie image. it's cool though, if someone believes in God, nothing can go wrong!

i have put together a list of people (dead or alive) who i absolutely love and idolize. oh my God i just pulled out the loooongest eyelash. ok, here goes:
1) Andy Warhol
2) Che Guevara
3) Edward Norton
4) Wade Robson

none are female, but Andy Warhol was a homosexual. i tried thinking of what female i could put up there.. Oprah came to mind but that's a realy obvious, unoriginal choice... Mother Theresa? hahahahahhaha. umm.. i thought of my mom. oh my GOD i pulled out another long eyelash! see, now i keep playing with my eyelashes to see if any other lashes will come out. i'm ridiculous. umm.. i don't know, i would have to probably say my mother.

me and Breanne were discussing today, whose closest to who. it started with me explaining to her how i told my brother how i feel about his girlfriend sometimes. Breanne asked me if he's closer to me or her. i said "oh, definitely me." and i meant it. i mean, yeah she is his girlfriend BUT we share the same blood and saliva, and just like there's Daddy's Girl's, there's also Little Sisters. and that, my friends, is irreplacable and something that is most definitely not ignored. that is my reasoning.
and then Breanne said that her brother would probably go for girlfriend over little sister. i said if i was in a situation where i had to choose, i would probably pick family over friends. first i said my mom, and then i generalized it to my family.
the thing is, my mom is my rock. yes she gets on my nerves more often than not, but when i'm truly down, or in pain, it's her comfort that ultimately makes me feel better... or makes me feel the worst if she doesn't think i deserve her pity and comfort. of course there's my brother, who is probably more important than my mom simply because he'll be part of my life for a very long time and we share childhood memories and i can tell him anything and everything.
my dad is also important to me, but it's a different type of importance. me and him are probably most alike in our family because we like to keep to ourselves sometimes, but in very social situations we blossom into social butterflies. my dad is more laid back like i am, and we often share those silent drives in the truck. not awkward silences, but nice and comfortable silences that i love so much. i feel as if we have a secret alliance almost. when my mom gets mad at me, he is usually on my side, and when my mom gets mad at him, i am usually on his side. and if my mom tells me to do something, it might take me a very long time to do it, but if my dad were to ask me, i do it right away, just because it's him and i'm never upset to do anything for him.

anyways, WOW that was a really dumb entry. i'll finish this off by quoting what Breanne said today..

"you Italians and your families!"

good day

so i'm really sick. i have almost no voice and the concert didn't really help me out at all.
on a positive note, my brother finally came to visit last night and he gave me my presents that he got me from New York. he got me an I heart NY t-shirt, a Kid Rocket collectable toy, and my favorite thing ever: an andy warhol movie poster. ITS BEAUTIFUL

Julie called me and we talked for an hour or so. it was really good, because i haven't seriously talked to her in a really long time.. or hung out with her, for that matter. she's a really sweet girl and one of my closest friends and i was really happy that we had a heart to heart kind of phone conversation. it was long over due. and i love her so.

we went to see Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End at 10:45 pm and on the way there i told him about my marijuana encounters, hoping he wouldn't get mad. i told him only about my first time and then he laughed and said he's done it too, more than once. so i told him the truth and said i've smoked it more than once. he just laughed, and told me the best way to smoke a joint. it had something to do with a blade or knife.. i don't remember. but it was interesting and i was glad i got it out and everything was good.

after the movie, which ended at 1:45 or so, we came home and he picked up leftover food to bring over to his girlfriends, and we sat in our foyer and petted Boots and played around with him for awhile. kind of a bonding experience, yesterday was. then he was going to leave and i gave him one last hug.

it was a good day

bonkers

oh my fucking god. The Killers made my fucking life tonight. i have never screamed so much in my life and i sang until i felt like my lungs would explode into my head.

every moment of tonight was absolutely perfect, and i couldn't have asked for a better evening. and it wouldn't have been the same without Breanna.

we probably looked like a bunch of fools, however, since it was us and a few others in our section who were actually "raising the roof" and singing and going absolutely totally completely BONKERS.

but it's ok. my life is complete now. i can die

te quiero mucho

i haven't really written anything useful lately. i like writing something good a couple times a week instead of random stuff everyday. the problem with that, though, is that i never remember anything memorable to document.
my brother comes back from New York tonight.

my mom says i can't go out until final exams are over. to be quite honest, i'm fine with it. i avoid arguing with her at all costs because i've learned she's easier to get along with if i just swallow my pride, let her yell at me, and not say anything back. took me long enough to learn my lesson...

the weekends are horrible. HORRIBLE. i'll be really good for the week and then the weekend comes up and i'm so tempted to stuff my face with everything in sight. food has magic powers. i look forward to eating good food. food takes over people's lives. food ruins people's lives. it's so like... powerful. just that taste and texture on your tastebuds is so tempting and can ruin you. my mom says i have no will power. she is half right. i have will power during the week, but on the weekends i'm the worst. and i know it too but it seems for that moment that the taste of that ice cream is so much better than the feeling of fitting into that old pair of jeans.
i even started doing sit ups. the one thing i dread. i can run for an hour if i wanted, do arm exercises, leg excercises.. but i dread sit ups or any type of ab workout. i feel this way simply because i feel like i've dug myself into a hole that isn't worth getting out of.

so i thought for sure it was a lost cause with this guy at my school, UNTIL he lingered behind me when i was at Breanne's locker this morning. and then i got that spark of hope within my being that is enough to ruin my whole thought processes for the whole day. Breanne even got mad at me. she gets mad at me a lot lol. i have such a complusive attitude. like on Friday we hung out and i was "far from the ground" and i kept laughing and talking really loud in public places so she just told me "Christine just shut up already!"
and i laughed. and then she laughed. and then it was just a continuing thing. we watched Shrek 3 on friday and i do not remember one thing from it. i did laugh a lot at random parts, which contributed to Breanne's annoyance and irritation.

so we got evacuated from school again today. THIS IS SO LAME. i've never just wanted to sit in school from morning to afternoon without interruption until now. it's getting old and i just want to LEARN.

the killers concert tomorrow. i'm pretty excited. i'm trying to keep my excitement on the downlow because i usually get myself worked up so much and it never turns out the way i expected.

so Pablo told me to walk up to that guy i like and be like "hey, te quiero mucho"
see what i mean, i keep thinking about it. it's insanity

i don't know what else to tell you since my brain is constantly clouded by this pondering of his signs and what he's thinking. and what i should do to fix this pickle that i am currently in

god i love Enrique Iglesias. them spanish men are ruining me. like food

piece five

"when i was in elementary, i wanted to be a junior high kid. when i was in junior high i wanted to be with the cool high schoolers, and now in high school, it's not as thrilling as i made it out to be. when my philosophical side kicks in, i think life is just a bunch of pre-conceived notions of what the future might hold, we want more and more than what we've already received... striving to achieve these almost impossible notions. it's like we're always so focused on what's going to happen and what has happened that we never really think about right now. i've learned that movies are brilliant when you aren't expecting it. i've told people about how amazing my favorite movies are, only to be let down when they said they weren't all that great. i'm pretty positive everything that we do in our youth will be reflected in our old age. how ironic, though, that tomorrow i plan to sit in the sun for a few hours... as one of the people who make up the naive teenager statistics. someone's gotta do it right?"

sexy

i really like Enrique Iglesias.. his look, his music.. and i don't care what anyone has to say about that.

happy

Pablo gave me another long distance call tonight !

he makes me so happy
:)

piece four

"all i wanted at the time was to fit in with the guys and tomboy. so i sacrificed barbies for knee pads and a goalie mask to play street hockey. i even learned the game of football between 5 people and i thought i was pro at catching those little, foamy footballs. i realized there was more than barbies, "house" and "school" and it was nice to go outside in the fresh air. then i entered the world of video games. Sega Genesis, to be more specific. And Mortal Kombat, to be even more specific. i always wanted to be like my brother.. i listened to the rap music he did, even to this day i wonder if i'm doing things for me, or because my brother's doing it. out of both of us though, i am definitely the trouble maker and the one whose probably caused the most family kerfuffle's, as most teenage girls do."

the city that never sleeps

my brother just sent me a text message from New York saying he is in a club with Bow Wow

i am so JEALOUS. he said he's going to bring me there. what's the legal age in New York ??? hopefully i'd be able to go next year.. ya know, after January and i turn 18 ...

:D

piece three

"At a first glance, you would never think that i am dancer of fourteen years. it used to be my life until i realized there's more in life to fret about than stage fright. i keep old love notes and sentimentals. they can be good pick me ups, but also massive downers when all you've wanted for so long is that person.. or rather, that feeling you had when you were with them. i've done my share of travelling and i still can't get enough. don't you ever feel so trapped in a place like this ? i mean, there's so much to see and do that the seeds in your grapes, the raisins in your cinnamon bun, and the crust on your bread shouldn't matter one bit. i remember in grade one, the thing i wanted most was a portable cassette player. i even wrote stories about a princess named Tiffany who wished for one. my mom bought me one for Christmas. i was also the typical, selfish, spoiled little sister. i want things my way all the time and i get upset when it isn't my way. i live for those family dinners at special occassions... the alcoholic egg nog on Christmas Eve after church, Chinese food on New Years, the egg cracking game at Easter. i miss those ridiculous pouffy dresses my mom used to dress me in for Easter. my cousin, Jocelyn, was such a tomboy she threw a tantrum on her first communion when she had to wear a dress. i threw tantrums when my brother, Jocelyn and her brothers would build forts and not let me in."

biggest waste of time

alright so today was a nothing day.

me and Breanne always talk about how our mornings are always full of nothing. i always have english in the mornings and lately all we've been doing is sitting around doing nothing. same thing happens in Cosmetology and Psychology. so my mornings are the biggest wastes of time.

anyways, this morning was the same. i had a spare in english so i had Psychology and then spare, so i was with Tyler and i helped paint his project like last time. he's doing a zen garden and it looks like it's going to be really sweet. during this spare, the fire alarm went so we all got evacuated.. THIRD TIME IN THREE WEEKS.
so i was with Catie and Hai outside and Breanne and her brother came to pick me up. he took us to northgate and we stayed there for maybe 20 minutes until Tyler came to northgate and Breanne went home while me and Tyler went to St. Matthews. we hung out with Amanda and Sam until we went back to our school.

after school, i met Breanne at northgate and from there we met up with Andre and his friend Ryan at Londonderry where they picked us up and he gave us a hook up lol
it was fun.

and they dropped us off at Clareview. we walked around for a bit, got some Subway and then we went to see Shrek 3. it wasn't all that great. was way too cheesy and Justin Timberlake doesn't have a very good voice for cartoon movies haha.

after that we sat at Northgate for a bit and then i went to Clareview where my mom picked me up and now i'm here.

home alone, too. my parents are at my aunt's and my brother's in New York.

what shall i do...

he blew me a kiss

damn i love that guy so much.

i was talking to Pablo on msn and we were on webcam too. and that guy just simply makes my day.
i was telling him my embarrassing moments, and i was like, "you gotta listen to this", so he cups his hand around his ear and puts it close to the webcam

fuck it was so funny. and then he got out his hat and hair bands and started putting them on. he has this afro and stuff, so funny. whats so funny about him is that he does things so bluntly. like he has this simple smile and this hilarious haircut and it's just the most awesome thing in this WHOLE WORLD.

it's sad though.. i miss him like, lots.
it's like midnight where he is so he had to go. he was writing a dentist appointment note so he could get out of english and french tomorrow. and then i took a picture of him on webcam and he saw me so he put up a "CENSORED" sign on his webcam. and he has the cutest smile in the world haha

and it was cute
when he had to go he blew me a kiss and he told me to catch it

:blush:

beverly hills 90210

so me and Breanne have this obsession with Beverly Hills 90210.
she was talking about it last week and i decided to watch it and i've been watching it this whole week.

and it's really quite good.
and Brandon is really cute.... :blush:

we're actually texting back and forth right now debating who is hotter. she thinks Dylan's hot but personally, i think his forehead is too big and he's kinda scrawny looking.

Brandon (played by Jason Priestley) is definitely sexier lol

piece two

731st blog entry. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT ?!

" i am very in tune with my emotions... i squeeze emotion out of every life situation thrown at me, however this screws me over time and time again, and also contributes to my drama queen image. i want to be one extreme and also the opposite extreme, so it leaves me confused as to where the balance is. reminiscing of times passed is something i do as voluntary as breathing or blinking. i still think about experiences with my first boyfriend, Pablo; the second and longest relationship, Trevor; the one who changed me for the better, Tyler; the one who made me realize i'm not the only clingy one, Robert; the one who made me happiest, Stephane; the longest fling and most important intimate relationship i've ever had, Joe; the one who made me pull my hair out at his stupidity, Jordan. Maybe more to come, who knows. my first kiss was in kingergarten, my second in grade one, and my third in grade two with a popular guy at my high school who is too cool to talk to me. my first real kiss in grade nine. my life can't be evaluated on kisses, however, beacuse kisses mean nothing in the end. i have a best friend who lives on the other side of the country. His name is Pablo and i miss him dearly. he might be my date for graduation next year. there are lots of important people in my life. some i've known before i could even think for myself, others i've known for a semester and a half."

you whore

also during these productive English classes, me and Breannemade a list of all our boyfriends, flings, crushes.. ever since grade one. in total, i have kissed 11 people (not including female), i've had 5 relationships and the rest were flings.. or something like that, i don't quite totally remember.
and then we wrote our first names with the last names of all the guys we had on our list since grade one.

it was a very cool thing that made me feel like a first grader again.

piece one

alright so i haven't written in a long time. it feels like i have, though because Tuesday night i was up for hours writing. i'm still debating whether or not i should put some of it up here. it's really long.. so maybe i'll put it up in pieces.

piece one: I really want to write something good you know. i watched Running With Scissors, a guy with this unbelievable life wrote a book, a memoir, about his life. i want that. i'm not sure my life really qualifies for that kind of thing. but it definitely has quirks and details that i really shouldn't leave out. i've had those relationships gone bad scenarios, those intentional fights for fun, teen angst moments, those odd coincidences, the grade two crushes, the weird exes who tease me to this day and the ones i don't talk to anymore. i also have those ended friendships, the deaths of cats and the absense of a brother. i even have a slow computer that forces me to write on printer paper, and i also have a marvelous collection of music that people could never duplicate.. also a collection of stickers, pogs and rocks. i grew up as a catholic girl in the ghetto and later in life, moved to an acreage in a beautiful house built by my father. my interests are ironic in the way that i love art but could not draw to save my life..."

i had a dance competition yesterday leading me to miss a day of school for three minutes on stage. we ended up with silver. so i've had three competitions.. two i got gold and the last one silver.
i just went for a 35 minute run interrupted by the viewing of America's next Top Model. Jaslene won.. i was hoping Natasha would win, but i liked both of them a lot and was just glad Renee didn't win. my goodness i hate her.

did you know food cravings only last 4- 12 minutes?? if you can resist food for 4- 12 minutes, then you're home free.
i'm not sure what else to write. except that today Brayden gave me his bus pass :D yay i was so happy because i lost mine and he said he would give me his if he passed his driving test.
me and Breanne laughed today because our whole morning was absolute nothingness. first block we had English, we sat around and talked.. second block she came with me to cosmetology... we just sat around and talked... third block was English and we sat around and talked.
we're supposed to be doing a project and me Breanne and Janelle have decided we are going to do paper mache. that's going to be so much fun. i think the last time i did paper mache was .. grade 3.
since Janelle is going camping this weekend me and Breanne are gonna go buy the supplies. and Friday we're wanting to go see Shrek 3.
during these productive english classes, we also made a list of the things we are going to do this summer. we're going to go to the valley zoo, the art gallery, the museum, klondike days, the art festival, street performers, the fringe... all those fascinating Edmonton events.......... haha

after school, handed in my last religion module (YAY DONE RELIGION FOR GOOD ) after me and Breanne ate at Smitty's. we were served by an ugly beginner named Adrian who kept fucking CLICKING HIS PEN

insignificant detail

so tonight we had a big dinner.
My brother and Heather were over and my brother's friends came over too. Alex (the australian, and Jonathon). we ate in the dining room and my mom made lasagna and my dad made barbeque and all that good stuff. they all ended up leaving at 10 pm after discussing hilarious job site stories when my brother and his friends worked for my dad and such.

being around my brother and his friends and just the good times we all talked about and the things going on in their lives.. it makes me feel like such an insignificant detail.
i guess it's all part of growing up, of course.
i'm happy i have my parents to talk to. i washed my hair in the sink and i walked to the kitchen where they were. i asked them if it made them sad. if it made them sad that time goes by so fast. i told them i feel like an only child, that my life as a high school student is so insignificant.
i mean, i know i'll have a life like my brother's when i'm older. but most people don't get to see that first-hand. i see it almost everyday. i used to be able to go downstairs and hang out with my brother whenever i wanted. he has a girlfriend now and he basically lives there. i don't like having the permission to take over his bedroom. i don't want that.
i don't get how my parents aren't sad though. i know my brother isn't permanently moved out, but don't they feel abandoned?? i know i do.

it gives me that tension in the throat. you know when you don't want to cry, your throat tenses up? i feel so alone. i just want to get to that point in my life. seeing my brother's life makes me think where i am right now is so incredibly lame. it's like, ridiculously lame and it makes me frustrated... seeing all these people who are so oblivious to life after high school. they think everything is going to come so easy and they think they're all cool because they're in high school. i am so totally over it all.

what happens at this point in my life is nothing. and everyone seems to think everything's the hugest deal. i'm sick of girls who think they know everything when they know nothing. i just can't wait for all this hype to be done with so i can go on and meet new people who are like me, and just to do what i like to do. i want to be legal, an adult, living under my parents roof but experiencing life like my brother does. i want to find someone who... i don't know. just makes me happy.

when i have friends over for dinner, they eat and get up and no discussion is ever come into play. i just want that kind of dinner where it isn't awkward... where real things are discussed.

it's 11:13 pm. i still have to finish reading some chapters. i'm going to clean my room and maybe change it around or do something with it. it's going to be a late night.

but i love late nights

kreuzberg

After sex the bitter taste
Been fooled again, the search continues
Concerned mothers of the west,
Teach your sons, how to truly love.

ever wonder..

Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin

Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed?

Why don't you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?

Why is "abbreviated" such a long word?

Why is it that doctors call what they do "practice"?

Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?

Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?

Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?

Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?

Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?

Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?

You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff?!

Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?

Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?

If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?

If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?

my mom sent me this e-mail

ONLY IN CANADA...

Only in Canada do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions
while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.

Only in Canada......do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke...go figure!

Only in Canada do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters.

Only in Canada do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage.

Only in Canada .....do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight!

Only in Canada do we use the word 'politics' to describe the process so well: 'Poli' in Latin meaning 'many' and 'tics' meaning 'bloodsucking creatures'.

Only in Canada......do they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille lettering.....Yikes!

drunken i love you’s on top of the world

i need to get myself together and just TALK to the guy. i'm making myself go nuts.
i have to make this summer worthwhile.
me and Breanne want to take fencing. we're going to suntan on her roof all summer long, i'll be pro at getting off the motor home.. i promise i won't get stuck on her roof again.

next weekend is May long weekend. plan is to go camping.

POSITIVE THOUGHTS CHRISTINE

comparing apples and oranges

it's mother's day tomorrow. i thought about the last time i actually hugged my mother. i can't remember. she hugged me a couple days... i don't really hug her though. i'm planning to tomorrow though. and i made her a card. not just the regular card's saying NUMBER ONE MOM and all that bullshit. i wrote her a personal letter. i made the outside cheesy though, so at a first glance you'd think "oh god another useless card" but when you open it it's heartfelt.

i saw a thing on a guy's nexopia page about emo's. and then it showed pictures of Africans. it talked about how people slit their wrists over things that are really minor in the big scheme of life. i think we're spoiled. we as in United States and Canada. we have way too much for our own good, that we find things to complain about. we aren't grounded at all. we are very weak-willed people and when things don't go our way we get upset. i just think it's pure ridiculousness.

tonight we all went out for dinner at Tasty Tomato. a small home-style Italian restaurant. it was me, Heather, Daniel and my parents. it was really good food. and of course, we talked about my brother's trip to Europe this summer with Heather. it always gets me really down. it's depressing. not really the fact that they're going without me (well yeah i guess it kinda is because of that) but also because i feel like an only child. my brother doesn't even live here anymore.. i spend a lot of time in his room and i even sleep in there sometimes... it's just really sad. i feel abandoned almost. and on the ride after dinner to my aunt's place, i realized that i have a big fear of being left alone or abandoned. it's been proven true in all my relationships... sometimes i think i subconsciously screw up good relationships to avoid being the one abandoned. it doesn't hurt to abandon someone, but it does hurt being the one abandoned.

i mean, i'm sure everyone doesn't like being left alone, but i think i go to extreme measures to avoid it. sometimes i wish i didn't get along with my brother so well so him not being around wouldn't be so bad. it sucks thinking about it... you don't want to grow up. my mom's brothers live in Europe, it makes me think what will happen with me and Daniel?
sometimes i'm just plain jealous of him. his freedom, his relationships.. i know i'll have that one day too, but i just compare his life with mine (which is like comparing apples and oranges), and it gets me rather depressed.

i feel like mowing the lawn

aquarius

Positive Traits:
• Friendly and humanitarian
• Honest and loyal
• Original and inventive
• Independent and intellectual

Negative Traits:
• Intractable and contrary
• Perverse and unpredictable
• Unemotional and detached

Aquarius Likes: fame and recognition, personal privacy, rainbows, dreams, magic, change for its own sake, eccentricity, surprises, and living within their means despite the many temptations which constantly surround them every waking moment.

Aquarius Dislikes:emotion and intimacy, people who show off, being taken for granted, being pinned down, violence and fighting, and senseless or purposeless extravagance of any sort.

A typical Aquarius has the attribute of intense desire to communicate. You are a bit tactless and rude if you don't learn to moderate your constant broadcasting around those whose opinions may be a bit more on the conservative side. You are interesting and attractive. You can be shy, sensitive, gentle and patient or enthusiastic and lively with a tendency to be exhibitionists. Both types are strong willed and forceful in its own way. You are very opinionated with strong convictions and fight for what you believe. You are farsighted and innovative. You are generally without prejudice and quite tolerant of others' point of view. They are good listeners, and care deeply for their friends. To people they are not close to however, they can be somewhat detached. The Aquarius sun sign is true blue and loyal. They are one of the first to sign up to serve their country, and will give their lives defending her.

You are truly humane and known to be frank and outspoken. You are refined and idealistic, romantic and practical, personable and likable person. Being quick in mind and responding, you love activity and are quite reasonable in that. They can be counted on to come up with original ideas. They make good designers and inventors as well as musicians. These intellectuals excel in the arts as well as the technical trades. You cherish and guard your independence and are a strange mixture of caring concern and cool detachment. You will go out of your way to help when needed but will never get emotionally involved.

Appearance
A typical Aquarius female has broad shoulders and a highly defined bone structure. You have long, graceful, swanlike neck. You have a wide variety of interests and because of such characteristic, you find it easy to identify and commune with people from all cultures and walks of life. This allows you to accept many different view points with ease on any given question. Most Aquarian women are lovely, with a haunting, wistful beauty. Aquarian females are often the most beautiful women in the zodiac. At the very least, they're interesting-looking. The Aquarian manner of dressing can stop you dead in your tracks.

Personality
You have lack of self-confidence, and tend to overly rely upon semi-mystical divination systems to tell you what to do on daily basis.

Love
An Aquarius female has high standards and insist on being treated with respect. You will never compromise in any case. You are sensitive, intellectual and you like parties and people. You are honest, direct and will tolerate anything for those whom you care about or whom you love. You are a very generous person, always willing to offer advice to those in need. You do require great deal of love and companionship, but on your terms. You are not that eager to marry and you seek intellectual stimulation foremost.

Career
Aquarius women may not find their kind of occupation for a long time and they switch from one profession to another. Professions that allow you to be free and creative may be best for them, so at one point, they may consider working as a stewardess, do special effects for the film industry, or choose a profession that has to do with the occult.

Famous Aquarians (that i care about)

January 20, 1920

Frederico Fellini

Director

January 21, 1905

Christian Dior

Designer

January 26, 1961

Wayne Gretsky

Hockey Star

January 27, 1766

Wolfgang Mozart

Composer

January 29, 1954

Oprah Winfrey

TV Host

January 30, 1882

Franklin D. Roosevelt

President US

February 4, 1948

Alice Cooper

Musician

February 6, 1911

Ronald Reagan

President US

February 6, 1915

Zsa Zsa Gabor

Celebrity

February 7, 1812

Charles Dickens

Writer

February 8, 1931

James Dean

Actor

February 9, 1943

Joe Pesci

Actor

February 12, 1809

Abraham Lincoln

President US

February 12, 1908

Charles Darwin

Evolutionist

February 18, 1954

John Travolta

Actor

the joker -- fatboy slim

Cause I'm a picker
I'm a grinner
I'm a lover
And I'm a sinner
I play my music in the sun

I'm a joker
I'm a smoker
I'm a midnight toker
I sure don't want to hurt no one

what goes up must come down

so Joe got a cell phone ! we texted until 1 am and it reminded me of old times. bittersweet.
this morning i sat with Tracy in Student Services on those comfortable couches and guess who walked in ?!
.. the guy i like. he sat down at the table and wrote something on a sheet he picked up and when he left he looked at me for a split second and i would've said hi but... he never looks at me long enough to actually do that. this situation really gets to me. Joe gave me some pointers.

so first block i had Psychology. we marked our tests, Catie handed them out and i just happened to get my own test.... so i ended up with 78/81. then we started our projects. in my group i have Catie, Hai and Marek. it should be good times. Hai is hilarious.

then we had english class and YET AGAIN we got evacuated. me Breanne and Janelle ditched and went to her house. but we stopped at Corner Foods and go ID'ed hahaha. but it worked so it was all good.

anyways, at her house we made these really really really good wraps with lettuce and chicken and cheese and such. yum
after that, we went outside. it was so nice so we decided to go on the roof of her garage. well first we tried the traditional way she always does it, but the motor home wasn't parked close enough to the fence so we got the keys and with Janelle in the driver's seat and me in the passengers seat and Breanne outside to yell instruction, we started the motor home.

and it didn't start. so we had to think of something else. we got the ladder from the garage and put it against the motor home. it worked ! so we jumped onto the motor home and then onto the roof. we sat there for about 30 minutes and then we decided to get down. WHICH WAS VERY DIFFICULT TO SAY THE LEAST.
yes, you guessed it. we were stuck on Breanne's roof. she called Justin. he couldn't come help us. so Breanne jumped off the motor home. me and Janelle were just sitting there like "you're crazy. there's no way i'm jumping off." Janelle is actually the funniest person ever. seriously. she's so quiet, you'd never think much of her but when you get to know her, the way she says things... so bluntly and without expression, it's the funniest thing in the world. so Breanne was telling me to jump and Janelle was like "NO don't jump. 'cause that means i have to jump too." so after probably 15 minutes of sitting on the motor home me and Janelle concluded that this was a very stressful situation... whether to try to reach the ladder or jump. Breanne even got us pillows and blankets and life jackets to break our fall. nothing convinced me. so i ended up using the ladder and all my clothes got filled with dust and eventually, Janelle eased herself into jumping.

it was the funniest thing in the world. and so much fun. we had to pee from all the excitement. anyways, so it was like 1:15 by the time we got down and we bussed to Sobey's at 1:37 to take Janelle to work. after that, me and Breanne planned to go to Abbotsfield.

we saw Brayden at northgate and we all chatted. he works with the guy i was dating a month ago. and since i really don't like him, Brayden is going to tell him that me and him are dating to say what he says haha.
and then the Abbotsfield bus came and that's when i realized i lost my bus pass. i was so pissed off because i can't stand losing shit. so we didn't go. instead we got McFluury's at northgate. her mom picked us up and when i got to her house my mom was pissed so i left. i took the bus to northgate, from there i took the bus to clareview, and after waiting 30 minutes at clareview (like i usually do), i bussed it to evergreen. from there i walked halfway to my house and then my brother and Heather picked me up. it was a good walk.

today was so warm and nice it was awesome. i was outside a lot so hopefully i got some sun =D

it's me the drama queen

eek

alright so, so far, you've heard of this:
Day one: get embarrassed by saying "i like your sneakers".. receiving a funny look and no response
Day two: get embarrassed when Breanne yells out his name i say hi.. receiving a funny look and no response
Day three (today) : Tyler whistling at him because i think he's hot. he turns around and i say hi.. and gives another funny look and still no response

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.

Alyssa says that it's awkward because everyone else is doing the speaking for me. it's like.. everyone knows but him. she makes a ton of sense and i was an emotional spastic mess before she told me this.

we just click

today was filled with high's and low's. i was perfectly fine until chemistry rolled around and i got my progress report. my mark in that class is 77%. i was pretty bummed, not because it's a 77% because that's really not that bad but because i have a test tomorrow and i know NOTHING. it's like you're not feeling too well one day so you don't really pay attention and then it comes back and bites you in the ass and you wish you were listening that day.
then i had french and i was kinda bummed still.
i sit right in front of Mr F's podium right under his nose and this girl sits beside me and she is seriously weird. weirder than me and in a bad way. for her 18th birthday party she went to Boston Pizza. and she puts on a different lip gloss every five minutes. she probably has like 20 in that ugly purse of hers. she needs to give her lips a break. they probably don't even produce natural oils anymore.

anyways, after school, Breanne and Matt were gonna play tennis and me, Brayden and Janelle were gonna go too but it was cold today so we decided against it, and once we got to northgate it was nice out. great timing hey. well lucky for me, as Breanne was explaining chemistry to me in the food court, Emily and Olivia joined us and then guess who else showed up?!

the guy i like. they were all telling me to go say hi but i'm a huge chicken. and then Breanne, being the lovely girl she is, yelled out his name (he was sitting two tables away from us with his friends), and he looked over and she said hi and then i just gave him this smile and waved haha. so weird. but when i left he turned around to look at me.. except he didn't say anything. GAWD he's so sexy. it makes me go crazy !!!!!!!!

at least that was over, and now hopefully i can say hi to him in the hallway with some confidence. then me and Breanne were outside and we were talking about Emily's 22 year old boyfriend. he was at northgate with us, he's pretty cool. and then we had a huge outburst of laughter and hugs and "i love you's". me and Breanne seriously think the EXACT SAME THING. i told her to get out of my head. we were at Shoppers Drug Mart once and i showed her the hair dye i used last, and she said she had used the exact same one. i mean, out of ALL HAIR COLORS AND BRANDS in the world, she used the one i did. we're seriously like... i don't even know the word, or else she's been stalking me my whole life.
but i love her to death. it's funny though because this weekend we had a big kerfuffle over the tickets to The White Stripes. like a big fight lol (because i thrive on conflict as she likes to say), but it doesn't seem to affect us. we get into disagreements (very rarely though) but she's really chill and i'm really stubborn that we just click that way. and once she lets down a bit, i let down a bit and say sorry for being so dramatic lol

we're a good couple. but i think i'd be a better couple with....

updated

check out my photography !
i updated and they're pretty sweet.

sneakers

i walked up to Jazmin and Brittany in the hallway this morning, looking all presentable with my hair straightened and nice, slimming clothes on (thank God) and we started chatting when the guy i like was walking behind her. she was supposed to introduce us (she earlier told him that one of her friends wanted to meet him because she liked his sneakers), and my heart was almost outside of my chest cavity when i said, "hey i really like your sneak-- oh you're not wearing them today! well then.." those were the first words i've ever said to him. nice first impression...
followed by an awkward silence for anyone who could not hear my heart beating. Jazmin threw in a pity laugh while he pretty much stared at me as if i was a unicorn. then something went on while i was replaying the horrid event in my head, leading me to not know what happened next, but he eventually walked away from us. then i began to discuss how ridiculously ridiculous the previous event was. i was facing Jazmin and he walked behind me and ALL OF A SUDDEN she goes "oh my God! he just checked you out!" and i kinda gave her a punch and said "you're such a liar, don't tell me that shit." and Brittany went on to say "now she's gonna walk down the hallways like this" and she demonstrated her version of me walking like a hoochie which resembled her taking a shit lol.
and then, at lunch me, Breanne, Janelle, Daleen and Tyler were outside. we came inside and he walked right past me and did not even look at me! i mean, after what i said to him earlier i at least deserve a glance. at this, my heart sank to great depths. but only to come back up again. we were at Breanne's locker and i was diagonally to the locker and i saw him walk by and as he walked by he kinda looked towards me. he was walking with a friend and he kinda lingered looking at me and the people around me for about 3 seconds. (like one 1000, two 1000, three 1000..) and once i turned around he ran to catch up with his friend. and i was like DAMNIT i could have turned around to say hi or something. i really just want to say hi to him or give him a friendly nod, you know? just to get that out of the way. like UGH
Jazmin said i have to say hi to him because he doesn't initiate interaction. GREAT, maybe i could roll right up to him and start another ridiculous conversation. that reminds me, my friend Sam had a crush on this guy once and she talked to him before hand on msn and she was like "when i talk to you i'll probably say something really dumb like, how's the ceiling??" then when she saw him at our dance after party, she was like "How's the ceiling?" and he just gave her a funny look.
i definitely think i should pull a "how's the ceiling?" pick-up line with this guy. i'm not quite sure i embarrassed myself enough yet.

PLUS, i told my friend Bri the story and she was like "oh my God that's so dumb. why do you call them sneakers? why didn't you say shoes?"
everyone always laughs when i call shoes sneakers. is there REALLY a big deal? i mean, that's ultimately what they are. UGH
other than this, my day went quite smooth. my kooky english teacher sang us some of her famous songs. she's actually hilarious, even if she doesn't really do a lot as a teacher, she's a really loveable teacher. and she seriously makes me crack up sometimes.

then i skipped Psychology because block 4 Cosmetology had a guest speaker. and she was good. i learned so much and my whole perspective on hair products has totally changed. she was funny too. she works for ISO.

i didn't work out today, however. i bussed home from Northgate and ran on the treadmill for twenty minutes. this diet is going very well. it's only day two and i've lost 4 pounds ! although i'm almost positive i just happened to check my weight at the time of day when our weight is less than usual. which theoretically would be.. at the time it says on the bottom of this post

PS. i watched The Departed this weekend. i watched twenty minutes of it two weekends ago and it wasn't that great but i watched it all this weekend and it was pretty good. it takes me a bit to get into those kind of action movies. this was twisted, and i was SO not expecting the bang-bang-bang- everyone's dead scene. had a ton of very sexy, very talented actors (Leonardo DiCaprio, Matt Damon, Mark Wahlberg) which made it that much more enjoyable.

i'd climb more trees

i love my brother. he told me if i ever want to hang out to give him a call and he'd come get me.

that's never happened before

black entertainment television

i just watched BET Top 25 Dancers Of All Time and was inspired to get in touch with the classics. so i'm downloading the discographies for Michael Jackson and Prince.
i'm also downloading Aaliyah. you know, i was inspired to get into some black classic music toppers. what i'm currently trying to look for is Savion Glover. he's a tap dancer, but if i could only get some music with his rythym's too, it would be AWESOME. damn. it asked if i was searching for Saving Lover haha
gotta get some Missy Elliot for sure. i dunno if i should get some Tina Turner, i know my mom kinda likes her.
i was thinking maybe some Omarion. i mean, i hate the guy but then i saw him and stuff and i was like Wow maybe he isn't so bad. but for right now, the last thing i need to be doing is downloading more stuff. i'm already over flowing. URGH i wish i had more space on my iPod.

major venting

major venting needs to be done.
so after calling my brother yesterday, he was able to get me two tickets. one for me and one for someone who i would invite. right?
ok
so turns out, my family's going to Jasper that weekend. so i might go with them, and i might not, if i can weasle them into letting me stay here. so i might have to sell the tickets.
i told Breanne this, and she said if i'm not going she isn't going.
and then i was like, what ?
why wouldn't you wanna go. it's the fucking White Stripes, right.
ok
things like that make me angry. she said she'd sell her ticket if i wasn't going, which i don't get, because i'm selling both of them to the same person. not many people buy just one single ticket.
but what really gets to me is that she would only go to the concert under certain circumstances. i mean, The White Stripes are a big time band and it makes me mad when people who "kind of" like them jip the chances of another person who "really loves them".
just to see Jack White live would make me go crazy. i love him to death and i think he's one of the most talented guitarist's there are today.
and then she started getting mad at me for making it a big deal. ok, maybe fighting over concert tickets is really lame, but concerts are a HUGE deal for me. the same thing happened with my tickets to The Killers. i was supposed to go with Will but it got to me that he seemed to not really care. like knowing i have tickets to The Killers and to The White Stripes makes me want to seriously jump for joy. i guess there aren't many people like me.
but what i'm saying is that concerts are a big deal to me and not just some place to spend time at. it's just how i see things.

another thing that happened today. i put my pillow sheets to be washed right, and i was looking for them and i asked my mom where she put them. she said she couldn't remember. so i looked where the pillow sheets usually go. they weren't there, and they weren't in the laundry room either. so she must have put it somewhere kind of complicated if i can't find them where they usually would be. the fact she couldn't remember, irritated me because of simple logistics.
when you put something somewhere it belongs, it's easy to find and it doesn't take much brain power to put it where it belongs. to put something somewhere where no one can find them takes brain power, so usually you'd remember something like that.

i'm so agitated today. and i'm not even PMSing.

pre-occupied with lagging

HOLY FUCK TODAY WAS SO CRAZY.
Psychology was pretty good and then sitting in English they had the announcements on to get out of the school within the next ten minutes. first thing i did was look at Breanne and she had this huge smile on her face and i was like "WTF we get the rest of the day of?!?! i'm going to your place!"
Matt was laughing and in the hallway a cafeteria lady yelled at me to get off my phone. i just started laughing and then me, Breanne and Janelle were waiting for the bus to northgate but we decided to walk instead. it never really phased me as to what was happening because to be quite honest, i was pre-occupied with the thought of being able to get tickets to the White Stripes. the tickets went on sale at 10 this morning. Luckily for me, my brothers girlfriend was getting tickets for a friend so she got me two tickets too. CRAZY HEY. i talked to my brother while waiting for the bus that ended up not coming, and i told him what happened in our school and shit. he told me to be careful and i felt reassured... and then he said he was gonna try to get me tickets haha. that's gonna be an amazing show. 'cept it's June 30th and that's the long weekend when my family's going to Jasper, so i got angry and told my mom that i was getting a job anyways so how on earth would i be able to go to Jasper ??
she makes the weirdest, most non-sensical trips ever. i mean, it's along weekend, 3 days to go to Calgary, Jasper and Banff. i just looked at her and she asked me what was wrong and i just told her how ridiculous that trip is. she always does that too, she crams all these things in one weekend thinking it'll be a lot of fun, when we could just drive around our own city for 3 days and have the same experience... since that whole weekend is probably going to be spent in the van driving from one place to the next.
wow
anyways, as i was saying, me, Breanne and Janelle went to Northgate and we met up with Tyler there so he came with. we went to Breanne's first to get Donnie Darko and then we went to Janelle's. we watched the movie and then when it was noon we watched the news. we missed the first three minutes when the bomb threat at our school was announced apparently. then i said, "wow we're all hanging out and watching the news. we're so old guys." and then i said "hey, what if they close down our school on Monday?!?!" and Breanne just had this smile on her face and she was clapping her hands. that would be pretty sweet, i'm not gonna lie. it was weird 'cause we were watching the movie and Tyler would lay his head on my lap and he held my hand and stuff. and it's cute because we can be like that with each other and know that we're just really good friends. like, i don't think i'd ever have a crush on him 'cause my first impression of him is permanently fucked up haha. but he's like a brother and he tells me to stop chewing my nails.
i find it all quite funny because i missed a whole day of school yesterday, and today we get evacuated after one block. it's been a pretty chill week i must say.

anyways, at 1:15 my mom picked me up and we went to Abbotsfield for my doctor's appointment. got my pills and stuff and then went to guess where????
REITMAN'S hahaha.
seriously, that store is really cool. they have some good stuff in there if you know what to do with it. my mom ended up spending $237 on me :blush:
and you know what the beauty in that is? i bought four pairs of pants, and like 6 shirts. when most people would spend 237 bucks on one single pair of pants
HA IN YOUR FACE :P

lol anyways. my mom thinks i'm a wackjob. simply because of this:

Christine: this place makes me so incredibly depressed. it's like in the movies and they have the depressing department store where only old unfashionable people work who wear the red smocks and the 1920's clip in their curly frizzy old people's hair. where they have the diner's nobody goes to and there's immigrants all over the place. (at this point i looked at my mom with a big smile knowing full well she herself is an immigrant)
Mom: you're really...
Christine: hey it's just what i see. but go on, what am i?
Mom: close-minded
Christine: hey now, i wouldn't call myself that. i am so not close-minded.
that's kind of a close-minded statement isn't it? weird how that works...

and previous to that in Safeway waiting for my pills to be ready...

Christine: *pointing at chair* that's where i was sitting when i thought i was going to pass out. hugging the milk jug. i point that out everytime i come here.
Mom: yes you do.
Christine: *sits down*
Mom: i think i'll check my blood pressure while we wait. *sits down in chair and checks blood pressure*
5 minutes pass
Mom: do you want to check yours?
Christine: ME?! no way. last time i did one of those i could NOT stop laughing and i had high blood pressure. plus, it crushed my arm and it was sore the next day.
Mom: they aren't supposed to hurt you.
Christine: yeah well, i probably thought so hard about how it might hurt that it actually ended up being sore.
Mom: that's your problem. you do it all the time. i've never seen anyone like you. usually people want to solve problems, but you want to create them.
Christine: yeah well... *as mom walks away* i think there's something wrong with me.

she always gets mad at me for walking behind her. i've come to realize that i sub consciously walk behind people all the time. in Italy when me and my mom went for walks, i could not keep up with her and i just stayed behind her. it's not that i can't keep up, because she'd slow down so i could catch up and i slowed down too. Breanne even got mad at me once 'cause i was walking slightly after her when we were walking together. i didn't even notice until this summer when my mom got mad at me for it. here's my reasoning behind it: i'm too lazy to pay attention to what's going on so i'd rather lag behind and make the person in front pick the destination so i don't have to worry or think about that.
lol
after that i went home and slept until.. 7 =)

anyways, i got everything out so i shall chat with you laterrrr

sticky notes

i told my mom about the dream i had a long time ago about her being stabbed. she told me that her mom used to say that if you dream about someone dying, you actually lengthen their life. i thought that was cool.
you know how you always hear about old ladies and their superstitions? my nonna and my great aunts are exactly like that. it's awesome 'cause they have all those sayings and stuff like that. when i go to Italy, i'd do something and then my aunt would pull me in and tell me what my great grandmother used to say. it's awesome.

i was listening to a slow song from Bloc Party a few days ago and i turned my head and stared at my couch and images went flying about Mr Mystery hahaha

there's this other guy i see in the hallway, someone who i was involved with last year and i very rarely see him, but ITS SO WEIRD, whenever i do, he always seems to come up in my dreams that night.

crazy

my obituary

the picto-personality test

You are a person who is very calm and kind. You go out of your way to help people who need your help.
When alone, you like to relax and do exactly what you feel like doing at the time.
You are adventurous, always up to do the most extreme things. You have a certain recklessness that makes people very attracted to you.
In the future you will be wise and healthy.

PFFFT

me

do you ever think none of this is for real?
truthfully, in the larger scheme of things
nothing is ever for real compared to something else. it's the end of the world everyday. yesterday's ordeal was no big deal. tomorrow we can only hope isn't dooms day.
we keep going anyways

that's what i told Breanne

i love Breanne because she can be the biggest dork one minute and the next she could look at me seriously and ask me if i think i've changed.
while walking through Northgate today, she asked me, "do you think you're different from how you were in junior high?" i said,
"oh yeah definitely." i looked up at the heavens then said, "actually you know what, i don't really think so." then i consulted the heavens again and said, "well i mean, i guess yeah. of course."
then she said,
"do you think you changed immediately or was it like gradual? like was there something that happened that was like --"
i interrupted, "life changing?"
"yeah."
we walked onto the escalator and i began,
"i 'd say summer after grade nine was when things kind of changed. it's not really a big deal, but it's changed my view on things now. like i went out with that one guy for two weeks. i remember my cousin slept over at my house for like two weeks. she was also the one who gave me my first cigarette. but anyways, she was on my brothers laptop in my room, and i was talking to my boyfriend on the phone and when we hung up on eachother we said "i love you." that's when my cousin gave me this huge lecture on how i don't know what love is and obviously, i was defending myself. a week later he dumped me and wasn't answering my calls. i was with my cousin bawling my eyes out to the point where i almost threw up. i don't think i had ever cried that hard in my life. now when i think back to that, i see myself as a really dumb fifteen year old who thought she loved someone and the whole thing just embarrasses me. i can't believe i cared so much about the circumstances. but that's why i see relationships the way i do now. i mean, there was Stephane.. but he was the only one after Tyler. i always hear my cousins lecture everytime i think about love. it's ridiculous."

that's what i told Breanne.