piece two

731st blog entry. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT ?!

" i am very in tune with my emotions... i squeeze emotion out of every life situation thrown at me, however this screws me over time and time again, and also contributes to my drama queen image. i want to be one extreme and also the opposite extreme, so it leaves me confused as to where the balance is. reminiscing of times passed is something i do as voluntary as breathing or blinking. i still think about experiences with my first boyfriend, Pablo; the second and longest relationship, Trevor; the one who changed me for the better, Tyler; the one who made me realize i'm not the only clingy one, Robert; the one who made me happiest, Stephane; the longest fling and most important intimate relationship i've ever had, Joe; the one who made me pull my hair out at his stupidity, Jordan. Maybe more to come, who knows. my first kiss was in kingergarten, my second in grade one, and my third in grade two with a popular guy at my high school who is too cool to talk to me. my first real kiss in grade nine. my life can't be evaluated on kisses, however, beacuse kisses mean nothing in the end. i have a best friend who lives on the other side of the country. His name is Pablo and i miss him dearly. he might be my date for graduation next year. there are lots of important people in my life. some i've known before i could even think for myself, others i've known for a semester and a half."