| You're a Passionate Kisser |
 -For you, kissing is about all about following your urges -If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story -You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses -A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble |
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 -You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. -In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. -In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
i haven't seriously written in a long time. my days are pretty bland these days. i dedicated this week to my learners which i successfully received this morning.. well afternoon. i woke up at 1 15, my brother banging on the door saying he was gonna take me to get it, so i got ready in 20 minutes, went and got it. all within one hour haha. but i didn't get my photo thing done 'cause i was without parents. but i was happy i got it this time. 'cause i would've hated to fail it again. like fuck.
so i've been going to bed pretty early lately. like literally, two nights ago i went to sleep at 3 am, the night after that it was 5 am, and this morning i went to bed at 8 am. aren't you proud? haha. i should've pulled an all-nighter.
next week should be great though. i doubt the good ol' tongues getting pierced though unless i wanna get it ripped out or something. i got a christmas card from my parents with money in it and it said "and this money is NOT to get any tongue piercings!" and i was like aaeruheubgdusbgsfb. but i guess it's kinda cool. i mean, every teenager goes through that haha. "aww but mother i wanna get this pierced!" "i will not allow that over my dead body" or some shit like that. haha. *sigh* its cool to some extent i guess.
i am currently working on a list of things i've learned. you know how people always have those things "i've learned that.. blah blah" , well i'm making one. except it'll be a ton of levels less cheesy haha.
it's pretty relaxing though. i had this huge cloud hanging over my head for months to get this stupid learners, and now it's finally cleared over.
there's some really gay shit on YouTube..
you know whats an excellent song? Que Me Quedes Tu by Shakira. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQNQ60mrQeE yup mhm. i don't know what everyone's deal is. some people think she's annoying.. i dunno, i thnk she's a really hot voice.. it's like different you know. and si think she's really raw. to be honest, i really love the Whenever Wherever video. i think it's really sweet and she's such a good dancer it blows my mind. La Tortura is a good video too.
i also watched the video Stutter by Joe. haha. i love that song. hmmm.
hmm i think i may be fresh out of words. i've been using them all too much these past few days.
i wanna go snowboarding next week. i told my brother i'd go with him. that should be swell
"As every voice is hanging from the silence Lamps are hanging from the ceiling Like a lady tied to her manners Im tied up to this feeling"
| since i crossed out something from my to do list. i shall add another one - spend time with Breanna <33333 |
| i sliced my finger today while washing the dishes.. while washing the dishes and experiencing a feeling of good will within myself. just thought i'd inform you of my unfortunate mishaps. while attempting to do something good out of the goodness my heart. ps. i thought that picture looked rather sweet i might add |
so did you know Switchfoot is a Christian Rock band??
i'm just foolin around on YouTube. watching to some of my favorite videos. and lucky you.. i feel like sharing haha
Hard-Fi - Hard To Beat
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eq4fs9aoiUU
Plus 44 - When Your Heart Stops Beating
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wl4zGbSBP3U
Skunk Anansie - Charlie Big Potato
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xw-k4Mq40Ng
Skunk Anansie - Weep
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gm3z3i_xfaM
i'm sorry, i just need to take a break right now. just to let you know how hard i just laughed at what just happened. i'd rather not waste my time telling you what happened. haha anyways, back to my YouTube favorites :P
A Perfect Circle - Three Libras
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HnZqjCkOvqY
(i love the way this video is made)
Weezer - Say It Ain't So
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YU7LZts87Zg
Gnarls Barkley - Transformer
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-Vdcasm4kY
Craig David - Eenie Meenie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdY44WUiEqo
Aqualung - Strange and Beautiful (not official video, but it's clips from REQUIEM FOR A DREAM YEAHH best movie ever)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLwGuLfahRk
Stuff i picked up in Europe:
The Kooks - Naive
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQckcE9gQx8
Lily Allen - Smile
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_jjuCfdksQ
Julieta Venegas - Me Voy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XLNmzKXCN6E
Ligabue - Happy Hour
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zzb00ySlLU
Finley and Mondo Marcio - Dentro Alla Scatola (italian rap AND punk HA.. its good though)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Mv0chF1WJA
Neffa - Il Mondo Nuovo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rwpuxdSHL9c
Paola & Chiara - Viva El Amor
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zSMVXBvkHEw
Paola & Chiara - Festival
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=giBxSBYwR6s
our time is running out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qIcr_KWiPwA bliss http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XrROiUNwgCM unintended http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w478NZabD1Q just a few amazing songs. they're one of my favorite bands. Matthew Bellamy is painfully sexy as well... watch how he plays the guitar in Our Time Is Running Out. it's enough to make me orgasmmmmmmmm |
| Sick and tired of hearing All these people talk about What's the deal with this pop life And when is gonna fade out The thing you got to realize What we doing is not a trend We got the gift of melody We gonna bring it till the end It doesn't matter 'Bout the car I drive or What I wear around my neck All that matters Is that you recognize That it's just about respect It doesn't matter About the clothes I wear And where I go and why All that matters Is that you get hyped and We'll do it to you every time Do you ever wonder why This music gets you high? It takes you on a ride Feel it when your body Starts to rock Baby you can't stop And the music's all you got Come on now This must be, pop Dirty pop Baby you can't stop I know you Like this dirty pop This must be Now, why you wanna try To classify the type of thing That we do 'Cause we're just fine Doin what we like Can we say the same for you? Tired of feelin all Around me animosity Just worry about yours 'Cause I'ma get mine Now people can't you see |
sleeveless hoodies
AHHH I LOVE THEM SO MUCH
and you know what's great? they're comfy, fashionable, you can play around with the shirt underneath to create different looks, wearing necklaces with them looks great, PLUS: ITS NOT MAINSTREAM!! like.. no one has them. they're amazing.
kay so like i just got the most random phone call EVER. here i am sitting at my computer talking to people on MSN, including my friend Pablo (i dedicated an entry to him) and i was also talking to Joe and Andre and my homie Jordan (bbs). and all of a sudden the phone starts ringing and i look at my phone it says "Unknown Caller" so i didn't pick it up. then i hear footsteps coming to my room and i was like "ughhh someones calling me" which sometimes i hate when i'm already doing something. so i was like "hello?" and this guy was like "hey" and i was like "who is this?" and he was like "guess?" and i was like.. "i have no idea" and that went on for like another two times. and then i was just like
omg
what are you doing
calling long distance
?!?!?!?!
..it was Pablo. i haven't talked to him in like 3 years.. i miss that kid so much. like i can honestly say i love that kid. we had a lot of fun in junior high..
well i just got off the phone with him after an hour and 45 minute conversation (since it's like 1:30 in Montreal right now), and i just had to write about it because it absolutely made my day. not even my day.. it made my week.
like wow.
i miss him =(
"Don't hurt my feelers" -Pablo Cifuentes
so here's the list of the things i got for Christmas that i absolutely adored (which is pretty much everything):
from my brother
- a really sweet navy blue and red and white bag from Nokomis
- a huge ass book of Andy Warhol from Chapters (has EVERYTHING and ANYTHING about him)
- Sneakers: The Complete Collector's Guide from Urban Outfitters
- Garden State DVD
- Andy Warhol wallet
from my parents
- The OC board game
- Scene It Friends edition
- two sweaters (one argyll, one black and white striped
- The Devil Wears Prada DVD
- face stuff
- portable docking system (iPod, CDs, radio ITS SWEET)
- fuzzy socks
- toblerone
- hershey kisses
- Revlon body stuff
- a hair straightener/blow drying thing
- $160
- orange and strawberry lip balm
- Seventeen magazine
- underwear
- a satellite receiver for tv downstairs
what i bought myself today
- two sleeveless hoodies from American Apparel (one green and blue, the other grey [sleeveless hoodies=my new favorite thing])
- Skull Candy earphones (Kevin said they're a good brand)
- a white Puma long sleeved shirt from Gravity Pope
and i have come to the conclusion that West Edmonton Mall sucks ass. Whyte Ave is definitely the best place to shop. i'm so happy we only went there today. the things there are so much nicer and unique. WEM is just full of people, i never get anything done there, it takes too long, i get headaches, PLUS the stuff there, is what everyone has.. its too mainstream.
at least Whyte Ave has some really unique stores, and you get to walk outside and everything.
the only really neat thing at WEM is the fact that my dad built the Body Shop by Buffalo upstairs, AND he made those colorful stairs on Bourbon Street.
yes, my daddy built those stairs. i know you're jealous.
i think i have found my Buddha.
for real.
it's like this switch has been turned on that has been off for the past four months.
thank you bbs
you were real helpful
for once i am too exhausted to type anything. i'll just let the thoughts roll around as they may or may not. and since Christmas is officially over in about 5 minutes, i think it's valid to look in retrospect at how awesome today was.
and how inadequate i really am when it comes to reality.
i hope everyone's Christmas was as awesome as mine =)
since it's technically Christmas..
i would like to sincerely wish everybody a very merry christmas =)
tomorrow is Christmas. it's Christmas right now. it's 12:03 am. i just worked on some Biology stuff.. trying to get it done. trying to get multiple things done. since tomorrow i know i won't have any problems waking up, i think i might stay up late to try to get multiple things done. i have done nothing these past few days. nothing that i had planned for myself. and i think before i reward myself with opening presents, i need to do what i had set myself out to do this weekend. i have two weeks off and i plan to make the best of it. there are a few things i had planned..
1) have a sleepover with Leigha
2) go snowboarding with Daniel and possibly Heather
3) stay in on New Years and spend time with my cousins
4) get my tongue pierced
5) go to the dentist
6) go Boxing Day Shopping
7) get my learners
8) come up with a possible New Years resolution (to stop chewing my nails is out of the question, as i have already decided i'll be doing it until i croak)
9) play the sims
10) finish 18 pages of Biology
11) start Math review
12) call Stephanie like she told me to =)
hopefully all goes well. although i can already tell you i probably won't do half the things on that list. but there's no harm in saying that i will try my hardest. i'll definitely try my very hardest. it would seriously mean a lot to me..
plus, i have decided i am happy where i am. i am happy i am sitting here writing about how happy i am. i've realized that even though it may seem like i don't have him, i really do have him. i am important to him, he does like me and care about me. and it makes me happy to say that, in return, he has me. he is important to me, i like him and i care about him back.
i figured, if i tried making someone else important, if i tried liking someone else, i would forget about him. but all that did was make me realize how much i like every little bit of him and his personality, and how comfortable i am around him to just be
myself.
"maybe it's time for me to re-establish my goals as a human occupant of Earth, to re-locate myself, find my true purpose and search for the fun that everyone seems to be finding, but me. life seems and feels so mediocre right now. maybe with some form of transportation, some legal papers that allow me to use a form of transportation and possibly some freedom which is only a result of excellent school-manship, i could really enjoy this magical thing God has given me that we all call life.
it becomes tiring waiting around for people to realize exactly how amazing i am. it becomes tiring when your best friends behaviour makes you question why, exactly, she's your best friend and why you hang out with her every single day despite the fact that she seems to bring anger into your life more than anything else. i don't want to be a bitter person on the inside. i try my hardest to avoid that, so i keep my mouth shut. but sometimes keeping my mouth shut isn't good. i don't want to be a bitter person on the inside, but that's all i seem to feel all the time. i'm insecure, and i am aware of that. trying desperately to gain some security. but then again not, because i keep waiting around for him, and each day that i spend waiting, my self-respect seems to drop lower and lower. i always talk of how i miss Beverly, how i want to leave already. and then i turn around and say how good life is. if life was good, i wouldn't want things i can't have, i would want exactly what i have. things just never seem good enough. they seem good from far, but far from good.
and i want desperately to change that. i really do. i want to love life and not fake it. i want to be able to sit here and not have my eyes fill up with tears and the tension grow in my throat. the only place that seems satisfying is outer space, to look at Earth and what a crummy yet beautiful place it is. to look at this place and where i am in life, and to feel the relief of not having to deal with it all.
it seems the only thing that makes me smile is his voice, and even then sometimes the things he says, or does not say, take that smile away in an instant.
maybe i'm thinking too much, maybe i'm thinking too little.
maybe i should go with the flow"
Christian; Anointed
-a girl who likes to encourage others; she is shy until she knows you; she's independent, resourceful, and creative; is good, gentle, and kind; sets a good example for others; one who seems to hold a mystery on her lips; a confident woman on the job.
hmm. possibly?
How old were you when you first...
1. Fell in love - n/a
2. Lost someone close to you - 15
3. got drunk - 15
4. smoked weed - n/a
5. Got kissed - 5
6. Went to the hospital for surgery- n/a
7. Got your heart broken - 14
8. Lost a pet - 9 or 10
9. Got arrested - not applicable
10. Smoked a Cigarette- 15
11. Broken a bone- n/a
12. Got a job - n/a
15. Went to a concert - n/a
16. Got your own cell phone - 14
17. Had 1st boy/girl friend - 9
18. Got a myspace account- 16
19. Snuck out of the house - 15
20. Pierced other than your ears - n/a
21. Got caught having sex - n/a
23. Snuck someone in your house - n/a
24. How old are you now? 16 BUT 17 IN 32 DAYS!