i am so confused 

i feel everything is rushed

i don't want to cram all this stuff in 4 years

why 

i want to learn and learn

but i want live too

i sometimes feel like i could just stop and decide not to go back 

even though i do love it

but it's so confusing

i want to take 7 years if i have to

4 years is so short

i only have 3 left

those will go by faster than the first did

i want to be 19 forever

sometimes i feel so rushed it makes me cry

just like me and olivia rapped yesterday

"watch the time go right out the window

you tried to hold on but you didn't even know

i wasted it all"

i'll be dead next week the way things are going

i refuse to age another year an entire year

i want to be 19 forever...

i never want to meet someone and fall in love 

and get married and have kids

if it means i never have to rush through a year again

years of life shouldn't be rushed

then one day you're sitting at your desk at your job

organizing meetings, taking calls, designing things

and then when you happen to find one hour of nothing

you realize the nothingness you missed out on your entire life

being able to do nothing is a beautiful talent

it truly exists, the art of nothing

i learned in a book

that Italians have mastered the art of nothing

we are a slow culture, where we take 2 hours of conversation to finish drinking

a small espresso

i just want to be there right now. i want to lay on my nonna's balcony and have the sun stare me straight in the yes

i want to see everyone around living

i have just floated above my body and seen everything 

why am i worrying about this

why am i so worried about fitting a billion credits into a single year

i feel so disgusted 

i wish i was a flower

where growing wouldn't cost money

where i could sit in the grass all day long in the sun

and oh North America

you think you're cool and superior

you don't know how to live

i don't ever want to live like him

i feel so unhappy but happy at the same time

i feel so confused i feel so frustrated

i feel so stuck

i feel so short of time

i have never been so scared of time 

i'm sitting here and i feel the time pass on my skin

i hear the notes in the song that i could replay

but the same note will ever be played again

the song i listened to 30 seconds ago will never be duplicated

i feel scared that no one else is feeling the same

can we all just lay in the grass awhile and smoke grass

and listen to silence

i am totally tripped out 

this is bigger than my head 

you left

where is everything