why do you look at me funny when i try to laugh at nothing at all

i don't like the looks you give 

my mom's best friend died this morning from cancer

she was the only good friend i know my mom really had 

maybe we're in the same position. it's too bad i can't really talk to her except in my thoughts i wish i could just be that person to give her a genuine hug 

stop looking at me funny because it is fucking annoying. things just aren't the same. 

things will never stay the same

i wish i had a rock that never went away. 

fuck you