tonight i am going to write 

a ton

if i were a boy i think i could understand how it feels to love a girl

i swear i'd be a better man

i'd listen to her 'cause i know how it hurts

when you lose the one you wanted 'cause he's taken you for granted

if i were a boy i would turn off my phone

tell everyone it's broken so they'd think i was sleeping alone

i'd put myself first

and make the rules as i go

'cause i know she'd be faithful waiting for me to come home

i don't feel like avoiding it. i hate it and i wish i'd stop thinking about you

don't call me baby girl for no reason

or to only fuck me up

you can't just call me that whenever you feel like it

don't you have any pride

don't you have any poems you could be writing to other girls

while you stare me in the eyes and tell me you wrote it for me 

while we're sitting on public transit

on the way to your place

when you know what's going to happen once we get there

after i give you a gift from the heart 

because i supported your interests

after the long pause i said "you're welcome"

and all you could come up with was

"i said thank you in my head"

what kind of human being are you

you're a fake and loser

and a tool and a try hard, you're not anything you claim to be

you can't even call yourself a man

i saw it all along and i believed you and felt bad

when you made me feel bad for feeling the way i did

at least i know now, that it's only uphill from here

not everyone is like you

and i can look forward to better things

because after you,

that's all there is left.

it's taken me so long to say everything because giving you the satisfaction

of knowing you affected me so negatively

was the last thing i wanted. but now i feel better

better things is all there is left.