unsettled

after school i went for French help with Alyssa. i came home and slept for 40 minutes. once i woke up i ate a big bowl of Special K cereal. from there it went downhill.
i was going to stay home from dance today because i had so much homework, i was going to go for choreography, but turns out i had to settle down.
after the cereal i was at the computer typing up my French oral final exam and my mom was making some food that made me want to hurl almost. so i went to my room, laid on my couch for a while. i fell asleep.

i just woke up and it was kind of funny. i was so dead, i looked dead, which is actually good since that's what Heather wants for the photo shoot she's doing tonight. so i sit down at my desk to start on my chemistry, but i decide to write first.

i put on Escape by Enrique Iglesias and i instantly felt good. those few familiar chords just absolutely made my day. you know, that song is really good. it has a really awesome beat that's good enough to release endorphins and i love those guitar pieces right after the chorus. anyways

i'm not sure why i felt unsettled today. it started in chemistry. i sat there and i could not for the life of me keep my eyes open. and then my hands went numb. i couldn't feel them and i was like what the hell because that happens to me when i'm high. i did not in any way shape or form feel high, however. i felt like shit.

i'm still trying to figure out why. maybe it's because of the cereal? the fact that i was wearing shorts today? i'm not sure...