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my neighbor's have a son in his late teens who has been trying to start the lawn mower for the past 10 minutes. he keeps pulling and pulling on that chord to get it to start, and his failure at this is making me laugh. just sitting on my couch looking out my window watching him fail. he's shirtless and he's wearing a hat. he has a nice body. he's sporting a little bit of a farmer's tan. he has a huge mop of curly hair on his head. i always have my binoculars handy, and once it was cute when he came outside to feed his dog and he was playing frisbee with him and stuff and the dog was jumping all over him. it's like in the movies.

but from what i've seen he walks funny, and his face looks funny.. and apparently he isn't capable of starting a lawn mower.

so yesterday i woke up at 9 in the morning. i had my Special K cereal and then i did my homework outside. i was outside for an hour or so and then i went inside and took a bath. i went to dance at 12:15.

we had to do choreography in partners. i hate when we do partners in ballet because i'm usually the one whose left over. it seems everyone's been able to stay close to each other but me. it's actually the most ridiculous thing. i try not to let it bother me because it's so petty and it's only ballet class. but part of me is happy i'm usually left over because i couldn't see myself pairing up with someone and having it be comfortable. it's just a whole bunch of awkwardness when i'm with any of those guys.

i was put with Taneisha. she kept walking away from me and i was confused as to what was going on. it's so dumb, it's enough to actually punch someone in the face. if this was a year ago i would never in a million years think i'd feel this way about the people who used to be my best friends. it really just makes me tell myself to fuck it. i was just happy we were able to choreograph something without too many awkward moments.

i've discovered that i really do like ballet and i like it as a nice work out, because i still want to take it next year even though i was going to quit. dance used to be about hanging out with friends. since it seems i no longer have friends at dance, it's now about dance. and i like that.

anyways, after dance i went to Breanne's house. we finished our project and around 5:30 we bussed to Sobey's to pick up Janelle. from there we walked to the park by our school and we sat on a bench and smoked two joints. then around 7 something we walked to Subway and ate. then around 8 something we walked
all
the
way
to Breann'es house. it took us almost two hours. it was a lot of fun though. at her house we did some last touches to the project and at 10:45 my mom picked me up.

at home, i watched the Friends and Beverly Hills 90210 episodes that i recorded and didn't watch yet. i ended up going to sleep at 3:15.

this morningi woke up at 10:30, ate Special K cereal and then i sat in the sun until 12:10. now i'm here.

and there's my itinerary if you so kindly care