maybe

i would hate to be one of those girls who always need someone there for her. the one's that can't handle being independent.

but maybe i do need someone all the time. maybe i'm scared to be independent, although sometimes it's nice to trick ourselves into being something we're not to cover any flaws we may have.

maybe i don't want to be lonely. and maybe i'll do anything to avoid being lonely.
but who can blame me? i guess i just wasn't made for handling lonliness well.

and maybe when you try filling that gap for four months, but it never seems to fill up, maybe i was
always looking in the wrong place. and maybe that place wasn't willing to help me fill that gap.
so then i thought maybe i should look somewhere else.

although it still hurts, i can't keep going to you to make me happy if you're not willing. i can't force you to do something you don't want to even if you say otherwise. actions speak louder than words and i can't help that. maybe i'm not what you're looking for, and maybe you're not the one for me. but always know you're important to me, i'll care about you always, i miss you, and i'll always be there for you, like i always am..