blurb of right now

tomorrow is Christmas. it's Christmas right now. it's 12:03 am. i just worked on some Biology stuff.. trying to get it done. trying to get multiple things done. since tomorrow i know i won't have any problems waking up, i think i might stay up late to try to get multiple things done. i have done nothing these past few days. nothing that i had planned for myself. and i think before i reward myself with opening presents, i need to do what i had set myself out to do this weekend. i have two weeks off and i plan to make the best of it. there are a few things i had planned..
1) have a sleepover with Leigha
2) go snowboarding with Daniel and possibly Heather
3) stay in on New Years and spend time with my cousins
4) get my tongue pierced
5) go to the dentist
6) go Boxing Day Shopping
7) get my learners
8) come up with a possible New Years resolution (to stop chewing my nails is out of the question, as i have already decided i'll be doing it until i croak)
9) play the sims
10) finish 18 pages of Biology
11) start Math review
12) call Stephanie like she told me to =)

hopefully all goes well. although i can already tell you i probably won't do half the things on that list. but there's no harm in saying that i will try my hardest. i'll definitely try my very hardest. it would seriously mean a lot to me..

plus, i have decided i am happy where i am. i am happy i am sitting here writing about how happy i am. i've realized that even though it may seem like i don't have him, i really do have him. i am important to him, he does like me and care about me. and it makes me happy to say that, in return, he has me. he is important to me, i like him and i care about him back.
i figured, if i tried making someone else important, if i tried liking someone else, i would forget about him. but all that did was make me realize how much i like every little bit of him and his personality, and how comfortable i am around him to just be
myself.