panic! at the disco

Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off

what it actually is: testosterone boys and harlequin girls
what i thought it is: testosterone boys and butt ugly girls

don't ask
haha

palm sunday on a saturday

8:25 in the morning.
it's when you come out of those dreams slowly. i've been feeling sick lately. like i'm on the verge of throwing up or something. i lied, i'm not. i haven't felt like that since school. i don't remember my dream but it had models in it. it seemed the more i looked at the models the more i felt like throwing up. of course, it wasn't the models fault, but it was my stomach's fault. so i got up and shivered. my mom didn't give me sympathy, talking about my eating habits late at night.
i was in the washroom and i forgot i hadn't washed my face from the night before. i hate days off for that reason. i hate feeling sick like throwing up. i work myself up for it so much. and i hate if people worry about it because then i tune into my worriness which makes it worse. it's just a horrible experience that leaves me on the bathroom floor breathing the bad thoughts of throwing up out of my head. yup

i get things done when there's more to do. oh goodness there's always those people who annoy you to death.

i've been holding back a lot. with my brother's girlfriend reading this on occasion, Jordan reading, friends reading. it's no wonder my blog consists of a day to day itinerary without much depth.

oh well.

i watched I Shot Andy Warhol tonight. i love it when people smoke in the movies. the actress who played Valerie Solanas (chick who shot AW) had a cigarette in every scene. she was never without one i can assure you. at first it was like "wow that's amazing", but by the end of the movie i felt so frustrated i could up-chuck if she smoked another.

i went to church today for Palm Sunday. i played with the palms. tore little strings from them and twirled them in my finger at a fast pace. i imagine it would look incredible when under the influence. i don't know if i can use that phrase if it doesn't include driving. i wanted to video tape it. you know when you twirl something or move something really fast, you can see the remainder of it, i wonder if you could catch that on video tape.

i twirled it around. i did minimal work for a crazy amount of twirl-age. and i shaped the ends so that when i twirled it it resembled a vase or something of the sort.

will ferrell day

Jordan came over today.
went to see Blades of Glory. very very funny
watched SNL Best of Will Ferrell. 1 and half DVD's. very very funny

end of story.
i can't wait for Snow Patrol. my brother better get me wasted.

if you can see nipples, it's couture

alright, so i didn't write yesterday. all i did pretty much was do my religion and go to a fashion show with Tyler and Breanne.
it was pretty good. there was this one line Degage, they had really sweet music and good flashy clothes. i told Heather today that if you can see nipples, you know it's couture. 'cause sometimes you can see through their shirts and such.
so yeah, today i worked on my religion 35, almost done my second book, i have like 20 pages left. i'm pretty happy 'cause the second book is the hugest of them all.
Heather came at like 6 30, we ate some supper and then we went to Planet Ze. she's really good to talk to and i felt like it was a good bonding experience, even though its really cheesy to think about. usually she's always with my brother but this was just us two. it was really fun. and there's this model that i honestly think is so gorgeous. she was in the show i saw last night, and she was in this one tonight twice. when she walks she has this slight wave to her head. it's really sweet. i stared at her face more than her clothes. that's bad isn't it ? i mean, models are supposed to be modelling the clothes, it should be all about the clothes. they can't smile or anything, but it's funny. they wear all this intense make-up, crazy hair, and they're usually beautiful people, so how would the people be able to focus on the clothing when the model is like all dolled up and stuff.
anyways
after the show, Heather drove us to Avenue Pizza where my drunken brother was along with Jonathon and some girl named Natalie. it was pretty cool, because i didn't even get ID'ed. so i ended up with a huge glass of Kokanee Gold in front of me. i had a couple sips and then Heather took it away haha.

SNOW PATROL IS IN 11 DAYS MAN
i can't even wait

and tomorrow Jordan's coming over and then we're gonna go see Blades of Glory starring Will Ferrel and John Heder.
should be much much fun =)

hakuna matata

so according to my religion 35 course that i'm taking through Fresh Start, i had to take this quiz on http://selectsmart.com/philosophy/

and i agree 100% with Jean-Paul Sartre, and 90% with John Stuart Mill.

so according to this quiz, i agree with the following:

Jean-Paul Sartre (1905-1980)
-When we choose something, we affirm the value of our choice because we have chosen it above other choices
-When we choose something for ourselves, we should choose it for all people.
-We must be consistent in our interpretations of moral situations regardless of whom the agent is.
-Logic cannot help us specific situations
-Making conscious moral choices is more significant than consistently following moral guidelines
-The conflict between the interests of two people is in the end, irresolvable

Mill, John Stuart (1806-1873)
-The Utilitarian principle is correct when the quality of pleasures is accounted for
-Liberty is the most important pleasure

i think i'll stick with Hakuna Matata

pfftyeahright

i slept over at Breanne's last night. it was pretty crazy.

first my mom dropped me off at Mt. Fuji, where they were closing, so me and Breanne had some sushi (she works there) and i got to meet her co-workers.

sushi ? it was alright. it was pretty good, but there's no way i could eat that much.

we stopped by Sobey's, but Tyler wasn't working so we walked home.

at her house, i put in her extensions. THEY ARE SO SWEET. i've never worn extensions before, and it was the most amazing thing because i miss my long hair so bad =(

anyways, still wearing the extensions, her mom took us to rent some movies and buy candy.

we bought candy. lots of it.

i have to work out double now, and eat nothing for three days.

pffftyeahright.

we rented Hard Candy, Stranger Than Fiction, and Sherry Baby. we watched Hard Candy first, she fell asleep midway, i watched the whole thing. one of the most messed up movies ever. i didn't really like it. but i liked the visuals. they had nice colors and it looked like it could have been an independent film, but Lions Gate did it. the guys apartment was really sweet. really contemporary.

fucked up plot though.

today we watched Stranger Than Fiction. my mom picked me up at 4, so i couldn't really finish watching it, but what i did see was really sweet. too bad i couldn't see it all.

i think i might apply at Second Cup in the near future. the one in Namao.

fashion week in Edmonton

so i was originally going to go to Betsy Johnson fashion show on thursday with Breanne, but she has a birthday party to go to, so we're going to go on a different day.

but Heather wanted to go to Betsy Johnson, so she's gonna take me with her =)

i'm so excited now. Jamie said Betsy Johnson is one of the better ones

silver fox

so on Facebook, there's this group called "O'Leary Grads"
i went to it, and i looked at the comments. there's this guy who graduated from there in 2000
and he was talking about Silver Fox.


LAUGH MY FUCKING ASS OFF
that's what we all call our librarian because she has silver hair. i dunno where the fox thing comes in.
but i think it's pretty damn funny how she's taken on this nickname for all these years haha

they file shit

woke up at 10:45 this morning in my brother's room. we were watching The Devil Wears Prada, he was kinda working and i was laying there and i fell asleep. then my mom called me a slob the next day because i fell asleep in the shirt i wore that day.
i got ready and ate lunch and stuff. went to Breanna's at 1:30. i love her and i know i always will. we won't talk for like 6 months, and when we start talking it's like nothing's changed. it always picked up where it was left. and that's what i love. we think the same, exactly the same. sometimes it's gotten us into fights where we bump heads, but it's never affected us too much. 'cept for those elementary times, but those are just funny things to laugh about now. she's just a really amazing person, and my constant.

we talked for like an hour or so, well it seemed as so, because we talked about so much. then we went to the bus stop, waited for like 20 minutes, and moved to a different bus stop to be faster. we went to City Center and had pasta. then we checked out the library, but it was closed, and then we got Second Cup.
we called Bus Link to see what bus we need to take to get to North Edmonton Cinema's. after asking for directions to this bus stop, we waited for an hour outside. walking inside, and then walking outside again from fear that we'd miss the bus if we weren't waiting there. pure joy filled my heart when the bus came at 6:15. we made a pretty cool dance while waiting, i'll admit that much. and fuck it was so funny. we were by the Bell building. and this is what happened:

Christine: geez. thats such a huge building. i mean, there's probably a billion people who work there. like how much shit can there possibly be to do just for one company.
Breanna: i dunno. File shit ?
Christine: we sound like a bunch of teenagers.

went to the movies. had free passes so we saw Premonition. saw Melissa there as well. she gave us our tickets. she's one of my brothers friends. then we saw Jordan, and Breanna finally got to meet one of my .. i don't know how what to call him because he's not my boyfriend but pretty close, but she never gets to meet my boyfriends so it was cool that she did this time. after the movie, her boyfriend Travis picked us up at like 9. he graduated from Eastglen last year so he knows a lot of my friends that used to go there. he calls me the Infamous Heartbreaker, or the girl who shattered Robert's soul because i broke up with him a year and some ago and they saw him cry in the bathroom haha.

anyways, so we went to Travis' house to pick up some movies. went to Breanna's and my mom picked me up at 10. it was a really sweet day. hopefully i'll figure out bus routes so i can go to her house more often. i gotta figure a lot of bus routes out, because i'd be able to go to so many places.

tomorrow i'm sleeping over at Breanne's house and we're going to see this indie film called Monkey Warfare. it should be sweet.

=)

ohm

this morning i sat in Italian class and stared at the white board. isn't it weird that when i was in elementary, we had chalk boards? like i thought about it and it's weird. when im older and i have kids they're all gonna be like "you're so old. i can't believe you had chalk boards in school. ew"
haha
i feel like old or something. ancient maybe.

i went to dance afterwards. we did some relaxation. it's horrible. when she does relaxation she makes us breathe out and say "OHHHHHHMMMMMMMMM" like you see in movies and such. and i just can't contain myself everytime. i just think we sound like a bunch of zombies. and it doesnt help that we're all sitting in the dark and when Lauren looks at me and she's laughing too, it's just.. so hard to not laugh.

after, i went home and watched Miss USA Pageant 2007. Tenessee won, i knew it. my favorite was Rhode Island, she was first runner up. she was so damn pretty. like actually. Nevada was pretty too. i hated the blonde ones though. they're all so fake and such. they look stupid lol.

then i went with my brother to run some errands. we went to Kingsway for like 30 minutes to pick up his glasses. first time i went to Kingsway since April 14, 2006 haha.

then we went to wash his car. we vacuumed it and everything. it felt so clean. i felt so clean and refreshed and it's not even my car.

then we went to Home Depot to get some stuff for his project. we were looking at cables, and there were chains right next to them were chains. i really wanted to buy a piece of chain to make a really cool belt with. damn. i'm poor though. i cacn't use my debit without being scared it won't approve. i'm not even kidding. it happened to me once and now i'm scared every time.

then i came home starving. warmed up some seafood pasta, and had a bowl of homemade chicken noodle soup. YES. it's so goooooood.

and now i'm here.
and now i'm gone.

perfume

amazing movie. incredible cinematography. really really good use of colors and lighting. one of my new favorite movies BY FAR.

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as i sat in psychology this morning, i didn't think i would ever live to hear the bell ring. it was the longest class ever. we watched Black Diamond in English, compliments of Breanne, and in French we watched the french version of Taxi. unfortunately, i now see french men as greasy people with a constant glisten on their faces of a mixture of sweat and grease. sick. close-ups definitely not needed.

went home, i watched Finding Nemo and almost fell asleep. then i just kind of did nothing. im not really sure. cleaned my room and changed the decor. the cover on my couch is now an off-white, and the bed cover is a shimmery gold, i cleaned out my closet, put the clothes i don't wear in a garbage bag (and kept it lol) and i put my new found clothes in the drawers neatly.

i recently raided my mom's closet, and found a lot of neat stuff.

i got some pictures of Andy Warhol and Edie Sedgwick, and some swimsuit models amidst the lake water and put them on a black background and put them on my wall.

i always keep the farthest wall blank though. there's two reasons for that: 1) it makes the room look bigger when it doesn't have anything on it 2) it's hard to put stuff on it without making it crooked

i only have my rosary's hanging at the far right.

Breanne's in Red Deer, Alyssa's in Europe, Jordan's working. on Sunday i'm going to Beverly to see Breanna. Monday i'm going to see an indie film with Breanne. sometime next week i'm going to go to Edmonton Fashion Week with Breanne and possibly Tyler and Kari.

i'm just happy it's Spring Break. more time to work out and sleep and see friends =)

equally balanced

today was pretty alright. i went to school, had cosmetology first, where Tracy sprayed my legs with self tanner, and when i put my feet on the ground to get up, i nearly fell on my ass because the floor was all slippery and orange with self-tanner. GROSS I KNOW, and all over the bottom of my shoes as well. she's really sweet. i've known her since grade eight i think.

i've come to realize that when i was in junior high, everyone had these circles of friends that i didn't fit into.. because i went to a different elementary than all of them, but now in high school, i feel as if i have that group of friends, you know ? it's just my mentality right now, it's kind of difficult to explain.

i worked out today with Selena and Amanda. entered at 3:06, RIGHT after i finished writing a near impossible chemistry test. and i left at 3:56. it used to be so hard to stay in the work out room for even 20 minutes, but now it's a breeze. it's a lot of fun and it doesn't feel like a chore anymore. except it got frustrating as Selena was helping me on my abs, and it was really hard and all Amanda could do is sit there and make commentary here and there. which made me laugh. which therefore made the ab work outs almost impossible to do.

it definitely feels good after. i feel so healthy and just lollipops. then i came home and watched the rest of Dodgeball lol. then i had a massive headache, and i fell asleep and woke up to Lauren's text messaging. and then my mom talked to me about my marks. she didn't yell. it was weird. it's safe to say that she actually talked.

then i had a yogurt.

today in French, i was texting. stupid me, i got a funny message so i had this big smile on my face and Mr F was like "put that away right now". he's moved me so much in that class and now i sit right in front of his podium. i still manage to converse with those around me and text message. anyways, then he went on about the logics of students and text messaging. and how once they're hands aren't on the desk, suspision rises. and then i was like "well my hands are always on my lap." and he said "it doesnt matter." and i was like "well i've been text messaging this whole class and you haven't noticed" STUPID ME.
he took my phone away. luckily, i got it back at the end of class. but honestly, why would i ever say such a stupid thing. then there's Sabrina in the back laughing the loudest of all of them and she's like "oh my God Christine."

it was all good fun. until he said he's going to request an interview. NOOOOOOO

it's time to be sweet Christine and beg Mr F to give me mercy and forgiveness.

ps. old blog and this blog are now equally balanced

cinzano mixing style

my english teacher said that a student once asked her how come stories are always so negative.. they always end depressing.

she said that it's because if everything was always happy, there would be no reason to write. stories are so good and inspiring because they're negative. it wouldn't have the same impact on the audience if it was all happy and lollipops.

and i'm guessing that's how come my blog isn't really what it used to be. i get angry from time to time, but i avoid complaining too much. i'm pretty sure, no, i KNOW my blog entries are boring, because i'm not picking out all the crappy things in life, i just tell of the funny minor events that happen from day to day. and at this point in time, that's all i really need.

yay

YAY I REMEMBERED. Entourage starts in due time <3333333


lmao

this ordeal

ps.

DAMNIT. i had so much to say and i forgot it all. now watch, i'll post this and close everything and then i'll remember exactly what i wanted to say.

my brain is such a difficult force to reckon with.

lately i've been saying phrases i don't even know make sense, but they sound quite alright so i don't really take too much interest in this ordeal.

i'll have you know

i will have you know that in 5 posts, i will have the same number of posts as i do in my old blog. i will also have you know that, yes, i do realize i haven't written in a couple days. and yes, i will have you know that my brain is spilling.

i went to Fresh Start today and handed in my first module. i am now 1/3 finished Religion 35, how glorious. me and Breanne ate Chinese food within the hour i had to wait fro Fresh Start to open. Mr Adamoski shook my hand after, and wished me a happy spring break, and the sad thing is, i didn't actually shake his hand because he was too "slick" for me. how sad hey, an old balding man who shaves his legs is too slick for ME.

i got my chemistry test back today and i got EIGHTY SEVEN PERCENT. how pro am i seriously. i would say quite a bit. i also wrote an essay today throughout lunch. it was good. last night, me and my mom finished watching the movie, and we discussed it for like two hours. she always brings up the best points, and she's a very deep person... always says something my brain can linger on for a while, and she gave me some great things to say in my essay. we had to write it on The Crucible. thing is, i didn't really see the greatness of this play until my mom talked it over with me. all of a sudden, i was so involved in it and i felt real anger towards how IGNORANT AND STUPID human beings can be. like, it just doesn't click in my brain, how all this deceit could be going on right under their noses. they must know, of course they know, but everyone is just so busy being weak-willed and big fucking babies that they don't do anything.

does this make any sense to you ? they used to throw women in a lake. if she drowned, that meant she was human, but if she didn;t drown, that mean she was a witch, meaning they killed her anyways. HONEST TO GOD MAN, you would think after some time that everyone they question is dying no matter what. it just gets to me ya know. i feel very strongly about this.

i worked out yesterday. it's quite funny to be honest, Amanda couldn't work out because she lost a shoe, so i was like alright then, i guess i gotta work out on my own. so i get to the work out room and Melissa is there. she was doing totally different things than me, but still, it seems whenever i'm going to do something by myself, i always bump into someone i know. same thing with the library. i go there sometimes to work on homework and whatnot, but someone always seems to join me and i never get anything done.

Alyssa leaves for Europe soon. Breanne's going to Red Deer this weekend. Jordan got a job at the cineplex and works a lot next week. yes, it's spring break next week. i am so jubilant for this matter because well, it's spring break. who isn't. .. .. i actually have no real reason to be excited. i'm gonna see if i could possibly maybe go to Red Deer with Breanne this weekend to stay with her brother.

America's Next Top Model tonight ? and going for an hour run to work off that greasy chinese food ? I THINK YES. i'll talk to you when i feel the time is right.

the hills

i just watched the whole first season of The Hills on mtv.ca

and i loved every second of it

wowie

i haven't spoken to him in two days and it sucks.
how will i survive when he leaves this country for 15 days
AHHHHH

hours on end

alright so this is my final say for the day since all the other ones i've written were just really ..

so i wrote my Psychology test and i got 90% on it, and i also got my Chemistry test back and i got 90% on it.
i feel fucking good when that happens.

i talked to Joe on msn until almost midnight last night. i really miss that guy. we actually talked about life and stuff. hmmph, i just wish i saw him more often. a few days ago he said sorry for not keeping in touch, with his phone not working and all.

i really just want to just go crazy with stuff. do you ever feel so passionate about something, you think it's the coolest thing and you could look into it for hours, you could soak it all up, you could look at it from above below right left or diagonally... and never get bored of it. never ever. i just want to get to that spot in life.

i want to rent all those old movies starring Audrey Hepburn and James Dean. and i wanna watch those movies directed by Andy Warhol. he was so eccentric. i would die just to meet him in heaven, it feels sometimes. i just wanna like have a conversation with him because the way his gears turn seem so interesting, no one is like him and the stuff he did was just, so weird and regular that it was cool. he filmed his friend sleeping for like seven hours, and he made a film on couples kissing. just regular stuff people don't notice every single day. i find that people are so caught up in being different, when being average and regular would be regarded as different, as intriguing almost.

i just love the world and all the people in it, and the different thoughts people conjure.

i'm clausterphobic. when i was a kid i could never hide under the bed because i was always scared i might get stuck or it would collapse on me. i feel like that sometimes. i just wanna be like him. so bad so bad. i want to be famous so bad.

i wanna do something everyone will think about for hours on end, wondering how come they didn't come up with that.

just like how i feel with Andy.