hours on end

alright so this is my final say for the day since all the other ones i've written were just really ..

so i wrote my Psychology test and i got 90% on it, and i also got my Chemistry test back and i got 90% on it.
i feel fucking good when that happens.

i talked to Joe on msn until almost midnight last night. i really miss that guy. we actually talked about life and stuff. hmmph, i just wish i saw him more often. a few days ago he said sorry for not keeping in touch, with his phone not working and all.

i really just want to just go crazy with stuff. do you ever feel so passionate about something, you think it's the coolest thing and you could look into it for hours, you could soak it all up, you could look at it from above below right left or diagonally... and never get bored of it. never ever. i just want to get to that spot in life.

i want to rent all those old movies starring Audrey Hepburn and James Dean. and i wanna watch those movies directed by Andy Warhol. he was so eccentric. i would die just to meet him in heaven, it feels sometimes. i just wanna like have a conversation with him because the way his gears turn seem so interesting, no one is like him and the stuff he did was just, so weird and regular that it was cool. he filmed his friend sleeping for like seven hours, and he made a film on couples kissing. just regular stuff people don't notice every single day. i find that people are so caught up in being different, when being average and regular would be regarded as different, as intriguing almost.

i just love the world and all the people in it, and the different thoughts people conjure.

i'm clausterphobic. when i was a kid i could never hide under the bed because i was always scared i might get stuck or it would collapse on me. i feel like that sometimes. i just wanna be like him. so bad so bad. i want to be famous so bad.

i wanna do something everyone will think about for hours on end, wondering how come they didn't come up with that.

just like how i feel with Andy.