it's always there

i need to get some drums

something is technically wrong. something is

wrong

sitting in my car crying on the phone is what i was doing yesterday at 5:18 pm 

in the University parking lot

my car is my sanctuary

i feel as though locking myself in my car

is locking myself away from any negative

Pink Bullets

years have been short, but the days were long

so much sense

shins shins shins shins

kneed my shins

need my shins

love my shins

love the shins

green beer i did not have today

had less than a ten minute critique for my 6 self portraits i did have today

i don't care if it's good or bad i want to hear about my charcoal productions made by me.

it's ok

i cant' believe the ways i try to shove flowers into wine bottles 

the way i 

countless lovers undercover on the street

note: it is illegal to climb in dumpsters

that's what my art teacher wrote on the Project 7 guidelines

what if i fell into a dumpster

i fell into a 4 month long dumpster last June

i wish i could say it was pleasant

but it wouldn't be a dumpster if it was

i am suffering from Yellow Grass Syndrome and

Music Attention Deficit Disorder

my attention is deficient today

this is a great song right now

Closer by Kings of Leon

where is Leon

and how is their government run

Matthew's are incapable of rapping

Marshall's, however, are passable

but i am the real slim shady

i should be writing 2000 words somewhere else

if only she could see me write in this way

she would think i'm brilliant

that i belong in Anti-Story

because this isn't a story

i don't write stories

but Anti-Story is stories

plural

there are only 3 metres in a storey and how is that possible

i can climb 3 metres up the wall

Radiohead taught me how

but who taught you to live like that

the end of time, when clocks will no longer tick

does that even exist? can time ever just stop

no going back, no going forward, the end of any growth

any happenings of good or bad

to ever happen 

"ever happen" would not even exist

there would be no for ever, or ever after

no thing could ever happen 

no blinking would occur

no one would loosen their ties

or fall into dumpsters