i would cry in the crowd

if i was embraced by the live music of Coldplay

i have so much to look forward to

i seem to be in some sort of rut and i think i need to speak

out

i respect you, you're my friend, i need to be honest

my art history prof was extra cooky today as she paced the

front of the room with a Rockstar in her hand

that gothic style 

i drew a nude model named David today,

it went much better than last week's Daryl

i haven't talked to God in awhile

a long time

ages

i miss Daniel, i am just ready to get out of here

i feel like being alone a lot of the time

but i try not to be alone because then i really feel 

everything

i thought i saw you on the platform today

i hurried off the train to get off before you

but you got off first.

you were on the escalator and you looked 

so good, better than i'd ever seen you

you turned the corner

and it wasn't your face

it wasn't anyone i knew

and i was grateful that you didn't look that good

it's better if you stay ugly

i would never ever say what's on my mind right now

i had a dream about someone last night,

this i can tell you,

it was with that guy

you know, with paint on his pants,

nice leather shoes

long-ish hair... beard.

it's ridiculous

it was a good dream

i may never speak again

why do i say haha

when i don't haha 

when i should haha

i would cry in front of Chris Martin and the way he makes me sing

and make me feel raw sadness and happiness in a shuffle

i'm a terrible friend sometimes

sometimes i disagree because i can

i like to argue because it's all i know how to do

i get tired of people 

but i come around again, it is a guarantee

you bought a new bag of pot

that's the way to my heart

the way to my heart

it is Stephane's birthday today

geez, so many thoughts for one sitting

i need to be creative as soon as possible

i need to get in the zone

technology will be the death of me.

spider web is tangled up with me

i lost my head

the thought of all the stupid things i'd said

spider web and i'm caught in the middle