ah do you even know?

this day was good

too many potentials

not enough time

or confidence i suppose

i'll just stay the way i am 

in a barrel in the sea

i'm fine

it's cool

i'm not in the right frame of mind

or maybe its a perfect frame of mind

i won't have time for you

therefore

i don't know fore

oh god what do i want?

what is that thing that could take my place on earth

if i weren't to exist anymore?

i would want it to be something rather simple

i like simple unfinished things

does that make me lazy? am i just catering to my laziness?

excusing it..

of course i'm not, though

i actually feel it 

that i like simple and unfinished

imperfectionist. things have to be imperfect

something needs to go wrong

Coldplay makes everything better

and if it doesn't

at least it makes me cry and think about the past 

to get my mind off the now

Mike told me it's always best to tell people how you feel

it feels better, i don't have to be anxious

i tried that twice yesterday

it worked well once and i'm still not sure for the other

what happens will happen

and if happen it does not,

i'll always find something

something