i texted blonde Olivia during art history,

"i shall i shall.. we'll see"

blonde Olivia replied with,

"don't see, just do it."

should i?  this makes me so uneasy. i don't even feel good enough about myself to put myself out there again.

holy cow my heart is pounding.  he wants to do something this weekend. i'm not sure why i feel so anxious and nervous, i've known him since grade ten. 

holy cow i may break out in hives

this is how it went. i said i was attracted to him, he said he's attracted to me. i asked what we were gonna do about it

and then we should do something this weekend. i asked what

and he said Bar?

he never initiates anything

he never initiated anything.

i'm starting to think maybe i liked it better when he didn't initiate anything, ever. is that weird? i was planning on completing this post two sentences ago but i can't seem to stop.

i need to not stress. wait, i do need to stress. stress keeps me on my toes 

--why the heck am i making this sound like my grade ten journal.

ahem, so i like the stuff we discuss in art history because we're learning all about the Florentine and Italians and it's cool to learn all about my ancestors and the awesome-ness that they are. 

seriously though,

where would the world be without Italians? without the Romans? i hate to sound like a conceited Italian, even though i really don't hate it, but the Romans achieved a lot of stuff even though most of it was stolen from other cultures, we brought it all together and established a lot of the things that our modern world runs on today.

anyways, now i feel like i'm just writing for the sake of words. i feel somewhat better

but i think it's because i know on some level i may be so swamped in work this weekend that i may not be able to go to the bar with Joseluis (also known as Joe ha)

but i will most definitely be at red-head Olivia's friday night after work. K-less, unfortunately.