i feel like writing

i have to wake up at 5:55 in the am

tomorrow

but i'll write for awhile

what about im not sure

i created an event on facebook

that alone is enough to create some hive action

which is ridiculous

i have accepted that i am a person who is on the down-low

i don't have many friends

there are only a few who go out of their way to spend time with me

and i am a nerd, a really big nerd

who has to make a new years resolution forcing her to go out at least once every 2 weeks

i have accepted that i am that person

but i don't think others have accepted it haha

i try really hard to make that my character

yes, i try hard

making me a try hard

in some sense.

its totally a try hard super cool thing though.

like when you take your flaw(s) or awkwardness's

and make them your signature

like that's what you're known for

for example,

i am known for not bathing as much as everybody else, as a matter of fact, i would tell people when i showered and they would give me high five's (even significant others!) 

i am also known for not wearing a bra, i haven't worn one in months

i am also known for being unreliable, i make plans and a few hours before the plan is to be executed, i totally bail out and ruin everyone's lives

i am also known for staying home a lot and watching movies, it's too much hassle going out, i find.

i am known for re-arranging my room 12 times a year

and changing a lot

i am known for my ridiculous laugh

and the many photos i used to take of myself

and the hundreds of journals i will die in

and the odd spectrum of music that i listen to.

i could go on forever, i am starting to think.  

i am so tired and my neck really hurts.

i hope i get stuff done tomorrow