this has made me realize a few things about myself.

i can't handle my friends being fucked up.
if they become sketch cases, i automatically think it's a cry for attention
because i can't handle friends being fucked up.

it's like
why can't i have the issues for once? why can't i be the one people stress out about?
why can't i be the one who is completely fucked out of her mind people get angry at her?

i am so sick and tired of these hidden messages and profound comments and phases. why can't people just fucking wake up and be straight forward and ditch being profound and just be real.

that's all i fucking want. i want to know what's real. i want to know you, right now. i just want you to be real