so tomorrow is my brother's 23rd birthday and my mom's birthday.

today i was sitting in art thinking.
i mentally went over my entire portfolio and then i thought
"i can't wait for Heather to see everything i've done!"
she comes home on December 15th and it's so exciting!

it brings me an overwhelming feeling of happiness thinking about how much i've learned in a semester.. and it's all about things that actually matter! things i actually enjoy! i've built up a pretty decent portfolio for where i'm at and just to think i went into a University art class with no previous art lessons and having a mind-set that "i can't draw" and totally overcoming that and learning that yes, i AM capable of doing this. . . it's probably the most rewarding and healthiest kind of happiness i will ever find.

i remember when i first saw Across The Universe, which was over a year ago now, and just the way he was living with every inch of his walls covered in sketches, it looked so beautiful and free and i remember wanting to live like that. i still want to live like that. it's just funny how things work out because of a notion or whim that presents itself.

i think about my schooling career so far.. if i want to be successful, i have to be creative! i cannot believe how lucky i am to be going to school and have to draw in charcoal, and paint and create things.. no other degree has 4 years of art as a necessity. how did i get myself into something so wonderful.

so so wonderful..