"The terrifying thing -- if that's what I mean-- I'm not sure that 'terrifying' is the right word--is that I'm free to write down anything I like but no matter what I do write down it will make no difference--to me, to you, to whomever difference are made. But then what is meant by 'a difference'? Is there ever really such a thing as change?

I ask more questions these days than formerly; I am less programmatic altogether. I wonder--is that a good thing?"

Thomas M. Disch, "The Squirrel Cage"