i'm sick
i'm tired
i create my own doom
if i let go
i'd be better off, i know for sure.
not everyone has ulterior motives, stop searching for warning signs. why do i think everyone has ulterior motives?
is it because i, myself, have ulterior motives?
leading me to believe everyone does as well?

i'm not God, i'm just a human, get fucking over it.
i can't be God. i can't be any god.

i should stomp on the fucking egg shells if i want to. i cower in the corner,
always admitting my mistakes, making things obvious, making it clear to everyone when it may have been unclear to begin with.. and maybe to end with.

i dictate my own life, it seems. i dictate negatively, and it ends up likewise.

no more.