there are some things in this world that, even though you want to find flaws within, are purely joyful. they're those things, objects, people or moments that if even for a minute, seem incomprehensibly irreplacable.

He simply said i was pretty, said he'd always be there for me. She went shopping with me, we laughed, we watched television together and talked about the random things in this world that make it so unique yet beautiful.
sitting here, curled up on my couch with genetics worksheets on my lap, i cannot help but sing out loud the lyrics to all my favorite Coldplay songs. That is, precisely, when i realized those joyful moments in life. it may feel like the world is on my shoulders. it may feel like i have no escape, like i have a million things i should be doing. it may feel like my whole life is determined in this one short year but i sit nice and warm on my couch and sing. i sing loud so potential passerbys can hear these pure words and know that within those walls there is a girl who despite the wrongs in life, is experiencing bliss that nobody can take away from her.

it was then i realized how incredibly amazing Coldplay is. their melodies, and lyrics, the paino, drums, his voice, seem so unlike anything else in this world. who is so in touch with emotions and humans to be able to put such ridiculously powerful words together? if ones heart could talk, it would recite Coldplay lyrics.

some songs create an image in my mind of someplace or someone, and despite the bitter or resentful feelings that lay so close to my surface, i feel happy. the sadness is suddenly not so bad.

the songs spark emotion in me and whatever emotion it is, it's OK. it's been years and for words and harmonies to still give me a sense of self, of surroundings, of my heart, of my mind... it's something that cannot be expressed in words. it must be experienced.