when i'm awake, i might as well be sleeping. i'm becoming more and more speechless, but i'm fine with it.

if i don't plan to do something i most likely will do it, but it seems when i plan to do something, my subconscious does everything possible to avoid it.

i have to think about it for a fleeting second and forget about it, then walk a block in my house until i sit down comfortably in a temporary oasis and decide upon heads and tails in my mind, making both heads and tails the exact same thing, whichever i choose, which ultimately doesn't really matter, i should spontaneously do, although a period of time ago, i thought about it for a fleeting second.

that's how i should live my life, because if i plan to do dreadful things like studying, i will never do them.. unless i use the Fleeting Second method. if i plan things i love to do, as you all know, i will do them.


i don't speak English, i speak non-sense after long periods of study time.