not a risk taker

my cousin Shirley, who is in her 60s, is a personologist. she lives in Surrey, British Columbia, and she is the coolest 60-something year old i know. when i was 8, she did a full analysis of me. basically, she read my face, measured distances between my eyes, along with the difference between my fingers and she felt my head. she has done some marriage counselling and she helps people find out what they want to do for their careers and she's very good at it if i do say so myself. she told me that i have a very strong make-up. and just by looking at my face, she told me that i would enjoy doing something with art and beauty. she also said i have a healing aspect to me. meaning, i could enjoy being some sort of doctor. i gag at the thought, really. i told her i want nothing to do with sciences. she said i could be an art curator, or i could study art history. or i could do something with animals. she also said, after feeling my forehead, that i am very intuitive. she said i have a lot of confidence, and when i objected, she persisted that i did, and she said i possess a lot of confidence. she said i'm very smart, but i think that everything is too easy for me which is why i get bored of things easily and i don't always do as well as i could. she said a negative thing about me which is procrastination. she explained that my prone-ness to procrastinating is a result of my very laid-back, easy going nature. yeah, she said i'm very easy-going.. that i'm never in a rush to get things done. she looked at my hand and told me that i am not a risk taker.

i told her i am really interested in interior design.
i also met a friend of my relatives while in Vancouver. she was born in Rome, moved to Torino and she moved to Victoria 2 months ago to work and she left for California yesterday for a few months before she goes back to Torino. she speaks english very well and she's 22.

i have decided that i will go to Italy by myself before i turn 22. i am desperate to learn the language and the only way that will happen is if i go by myself and fully immerse myself into the culture.

i could be a risk taker if i really wanted to