i'm feeling controversial

i would like to announce to the public, whether you agree or not, that i am brilliant. i honestly think i am brilliant. as a matter of fact, i know i'm brilliant.

for reasons i cannot include, i have included them in a previous unpublished post. so lucky for you, you will never know what just happened to me or what i wrote in a post you will never lay your eyes on. things happened. several things actually. for one, i got a slap in the face that didn't hurt one bit which was probably the best thing ever. for another, i found a purpose for the white string tied around my wrist. for a third, i had an epiphany, just like the many epiphanies i've had before. for a fourth, i'm quite confident in this epiphany.

hmm. i'm feeling quite smug right now i'm not gonna lie. and yes, i do feel quite arrogant and superficial and cocky and selfish. but here's the beauty of it all: i'm happy. sitting right here, right now, i've never been so sure of myself. and yes, i am admitting to my arrogance, my cockiness, whatever else you may call it. but it's awesome. people always try so hard to be selfless and to bend over backwards for everyone else. well what the fuck. who gives a fuck about everyone else sometimes. seriously. it's only you thats gonna take you into this life, not the people you help, unless you're a firm believer in karma and such things as that and also some sort of political leader. which i am not. i am merely a high school student who's an arrogant bitch. i also tend to kiss ass a lot as well.

and fuck am i ever on a roll. you don't even understand. i've never felt so liberated in my whole entire life. i mean, it sucks trying to be someone you're not. and i am just so proud of myself in the way i've been handling situations recently. yes i said it. i am proud of myself. fucking proud at that, too. and yes, that was an arrogant statement. and i realize that. it's about time everyone understood just how arrogant i can be.

and what the fuck, tomorrow morning i may regret this whole thing. tomorrow morning i may think every word i said here is bull shit. tomorrow morning i may laugh at myself or smack my head against the wall. but that's just part of who i am. i say shit one day, and go totally against it the other day. i am a hypocrite. and that's something else i'm not afraid to admit. and who said it was a bad thing?

i think everyone would just be so much better off actually admitting they're flaws. flaws aren't even bad. why has society turned self-righteousness into something so horrible? when did that ever start? the fact that it's so looked down upon makes people hide it. and hiding it just suckas major ass i'm not gonna lie. if it's part of who you are, why should you not admit to it. all i want to see is for one person to be angry at another and call them an arrogant bastard, and for that arrogant bastard to be like "yup". then what? trying to hide it just creates unnecessary baggage. admitting it and brushing it off your shoulder makes it so much easier to deal with.

it's just so liberating. *sigh* you may think i'm going nuts. blame me. i got my wisdom tooth pulled this morning.
i lost some wisdom possibly. i beg to differ however, because i feel wiser than ever. i feel smarter than ever. i feel more brilliant than ever.

and yes, that was three arrogant statements in a row =)

i am also really sorry for the eff-words included. i feel like a major loser for that. but i gotta run free sometimes right?