i know she knows i'm not fond of asking

i watched the Bourne Identity and then got kicked out. i was planning on watching the Bourne Supremacy, since i haven't seen that one yet.. that was the reason why i even watched the first one. i have a ton of movies, but i always watch the same ones. in the next few months, when i'm home alone on those Friday nights (which is a frequent occurrence), i shall force myself to watch the following
1)V for Vendetta (since i fell asleep mid way last time i watched it)
2)Batman Begins
3) Pulp Fiction
4)Resident Evil:Apocalypse ( i have watched it before, but never liked it, so i will watch it until i love it)
5)Bourne Supremacy
6)Boondock Saints (since i have not watched it in a while)

and that's all i can really think of right now. there's a few movies i really wanna see too:
1) Little Miss Sunshine
2) I heart Huckabees
3) Life As A House

i can be quite particular when it comes to movies. like, it takes me forever to decide what to watch. it's kind of how i am with songs. it takes me awhile to get to know songs.. most of my current favorites, were once songs i thought were nothing special. when i choose a movie, i'll decide on one, and then when i think about it thoroughly, i decide against it. which isn't good because if i just forced myself to watch it i would see that it was so totally worth it.
like the other day i watched The Recruit, which isn't one that i would usually watch, and i absolutely loved it. i'm weird that way.

but i love movies. sometimes too much i think. i mean, i look forward to watching movies more than actually going out. which is where i can be quite the loner. which i'm totally fine with. it's just how i am. it doesn't mean i'm depressed or anything, i just love being alone a lot of the time. which is why i just love curling up in front of the big screen to watch movies by myself.
when i'm with people, i don;t know.. i feel like i have something to prove, and i feel like they expect something from me. to be honest, i can be really silent sometimes. and i can;t be silent in front of people because then they'll think i'm boring or whatever. which i totally am not, but that's just how people would take that as. so when i force myself to be something i'm not really wanting to be at that time, i tend to feel as though things are awkward. most of the time, though, i like to think i'm just not like everyone else. everyone's all about parties and going out.. then there's me, who misses the freedom of being at home after a single sleepover. i've come to realize i don't like sleepovers as much as i used to. i don't see the point really. i end up feeling utterly disgusting the next morning.. and to be honest, i love my bed and my pillows and having the freedom of spreading out without hitting anyone else.

i'm just a big home-body loner. and i like it that way. like Mark said in Garden State "i like being unimpressive. i sleep better."

going back to movies, i've figured out one of my favorite movies scenes of all time. if you've seen The Last Kiss starring Zach Braff <333, it's when he gets locked outside his house, and he tells his girlfriend he's not going anywhere until she lets him in. so he sits down with his back to the door, and Warning Sign by Coldplay starts. damn i love that song. it was pretty funny though, when i first watched it, i got really excited and then when Chris Martin (lead singer) started singing, me and my brother were just singing along with him. and then we both messed up at the same part. and it was pretty funny. ANYWAYS..

and even tonight when i watched the Bourne Identity, when there's that car chase scene in the mini cooper. Ready Steady Go by Paul Oakenfield came on. when that happens i just think "right on. i so totally know this song."

fuck. i am so weird.