feels like a midget is hanging from my necklace

so it's january 1st hey. and considering i can say that the first five hours of 2007, i was talking to Jordan on MSN, it should be a rather good year. also, the fact that i did have a spoonful of lentils last night is a very positive thing.it's kind of a tradition for my whole family on New Years. after midnight rolls around, my aunt brings down the lentils, and we all have some for good luck and money in the new year. i never had any last year 'cause it looked nasty, but i had some this year. i mean, the way things are going, this year might've been one of the worst definitely. between horrible school marks, getting dumped by one of the coolest guys i've ever met, going through hell trying to get over one of the coolest guys i've ever met, Smokey dying, that April incident, getting caught up in a huge mess for four months with someone who obviously doesn't have the same feelings, realizing that i should leave that mess of four months behind in 2006 and start new for this year, and i guess Italy was good but since i'm trying desperately to be negative here to earn some of your sympathy and prove that this year was in fact awful in more ways than just a few, it would have been better if my brother came along and i didn't have to go just with my mother.
i guess the fact that i am still living and breathing and experiencing no pain neither emotional or physical, i can say that this year just might go fairly well.

but beginnings are a bitch in the way that they always seem to be peachy....