two birds with one stone

i need to gte out of this place. not just this bedroom, this house. i need to get out of this country. i had a dream last night. we lived in this odd house, and when i say odd i mean a house that isn't our own, and my room had a leak or something.. i woke up and my whole wall was wet, and rotting or something. so my dad tore it down. and there was like, this little room behind it that none of us used. so i suggested my dad leave the wall out of it so my room would be bigger. and that was my dream. i don't get it.. like, at all. haha.

i woke up this morning and my windows were iced.. as was the rest of my room. so i made some bullshit up that i didn't feel good, 'cause i didn't have a pleasant sleep at all last night. so my mom let me stay home (she's becoming quite reasonable these days lol). i slept 'til 11 something. my room is right by the garage AND outside. plus i didn't leave my door open yesterday so the fireplace heat could saturate my room (haha). i stayed home.. cleaned my room and stuff. and i have made a decision..

i am moving back to sleeping on my bed. i've been sleeping on my couch for months now. i do that sometimes. i'm a weird sleeper. i go months sleeping on my couch, and months sleeping on my bed. and some nights i end up sleeping on the floor cuz it feels good on my back, and i feel like i'm getting in touch with something. i don;t know.. don't ask me, i just feel that way sometimes. i'm a spiritual freak when it comes to sleeping on the floor haha. so yeah, i covered my couch and cleaned off my bed from the crap that it was covered in so it was sleepable. we'll see how it goes tonight. i think it'll be good, 'cause when i slept on the couch, my head was right by the window that goes to the outside, so my upper body was always cold and when i stick my hand out from under the covers, there was always a breeze..

it sounds like i live in a house made of mud or something haha.

watched Oprah today. some of the Ellen Degeneres show. i like watching Ellen. when she makes people dance and stuff. dancing is such a good pick me up. seriously.. that's probably why she's always so gay. yes.. if you haven't noticed i just killed two birds with one stone (thats the saying, right?..)

so i'm feeling pretty up to reading my art history book today. look through it. it's my brothers. he gave it to me when i thought about doing something with Art History.

so the lead singer of Phantom Planet is really quite hot. i'm not gonna lie.

we talked last night for like 20 minutes 'cause he was tired. it was good. i dunno.. when people say that phone calls are so important in any kind of relationship, i never got that. my mind never understood why.. like, why phone calls? isn't seeing that person in the flesh so much better..? but then when i was talking to him last night, i finally got it. i mean, when we talk on text message it's so.. like.. not them. you imagine them saying it right? but thats awful 'cause the mood you're in affects how you hear it in your head. so we were talking on the phone, and just hearing his voice is so nice. and hearing his little laughs and sighs here and there.. it was just.. good.

well i know Nicole's waiting for me to finish this up haha, so i will.... finish this up :P

"all i have to do is think of me and i'll have peace of mind."