today

so i'm in communications. this stupid blogger isn't working, so i've been writing these past couple days, without them being able to show up. makes sense right? not really, but that's alright. i just wanna write, it doesn't matter if it means no one can read what i'm writing. i finally finished my first credit in this stupid course haha. it's about time, seriously. i should've just taken this block as a spare. i treat it like one. so today i'm pretty content. even though my legs are in a massive soreness state. me and Leigha worked out yesterday. FOR 30 MINUTES! aren't you proud? haha. we usualy stay there for like 20 minutes and leave. it's pretty funny. we couldn't walk up and down the fkn stairs. .. we should've just fallen down.

i woke up at 6 this morning. like, i actually woke up with no trouble. usually, i wake up at 6:30 am, and put myself together as a scrub, but today i felt like looking good. so i look good. i straightened my hair. ooh wait, i just got a text.

aaanyways, so i'm definitely a chaser. or maybe i just need to go with the flow. but when he said that thing he told me a few days ago, here's what i felt in consecutive order, in a matter of 3 seconds: 1) surprise 2) happiness 3) awkwardness. why the awkwardness? because i'm a chaser. and a worrier. i mean, now that i've thought about it i like him. i always did, but it was just for those few minutes that i was like OH MY GOD. WHAT THE FUCK. haha. i don't know. i'm pretty fucked up sometimes. well, more often than not actually.

i talked to Jamie last night on nexopia until 11:30. i think she's one of the craziest, nicest, strongest people i know. seriously. even after everything she's been through, she still has the courage to make realistic goals for herself, and give everything it takes to get there. people say she's fucked up bad, but i don't think she is at all. she knows what she wants out of life and she's willing to do anything to get it, and that to me, isn't fucked up at all. sometimes i wish i had some of her characteristics.

i feel like watching Fight Club. UGH its so good.

the first rule of fight club is you do not talk about fight club.
the second rule of fight club is you DO NOT talk about fight club.
third rule if someone goes limp, taps out, the fight is over.
fourth rule only two guys to a fight.
fifth rule one fight at a time.
sixth rule no shirts. no shoes.
seventh rule fights will go on as long as they have to.
and the eighth and final rule is if this is your first night of fight club, you have to fight.

Project Mayhem
1st rule you do not ask questions
2nd rule you DO NOT ask questions
3rd rule in project mayhem there are no excuses
4th rule no lies
5th rule you have to trust tyler

This is your life, good to the last drop. Doesn't get any better than this. This is your life and its ending one minute at time. you are not your job you are not how much you have in the bank you are not the contents of your wallet you are not your khakis you are not the car you drive you are not a beautiful and unique snowflake the things you own end up owning you self-improvement is masturbation self-destructive might be the answer In Tyler we trust.

kay im done. wow. i'm obsessed.